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Some days ago I finally found a animated movie I've been searching for about 15 years, perhaps more. I saw it when I was 6-7 years old and it left a deep impression on me. I couldn't recall the title or the storyline, so the search was quite futile. For a long time I thought it was an anime, searched the whole anidb.info, but didn't find anything. At some point I started to doubt that it even exists. And some days ago I stumbled upon it in some cracked.com article about terrifying cartoons. As it turns out, it's Ralph Bakshi's "Wizards" (so not an anime, obviously), and, as it seems, it's a pretty fucked up cartoon. Anyhow. I always thought I'd be excited when I finally find it, but it was.. different. I felt peace, a certain kind of serenity. Maybe it's because I only needed affirmation that it exists, I don't know. Maybe it's because I cling to my memories so much.
I remember sitting in the room back then - heavy air, it was raining outside, I think. I was spending that summer in countryside (although not with my relatives, but with my childhood's friends relatives/acquaintances). Someone had rented one of the Star Wars movies and that cartoon was taped in there, too - now that I know what kind of cartoon that was, I highly doubt that they would have shown that on TV (though some of our own animation stuff is quite fucked up) - besides, we were either still in Soviet Union or just out of it, so I assume this stuff wasn't very legal.
I only vaguely recall the movie itself, just some scenes - I can't even tell what was the story about or who were the main characters. What I mostly recall is how I felt about it - some odd sadness, confusion, feeling of dread and something else, too. I'm thinking it's those feelings which are to blame why I remember this event at all - something of that might have been new to me and I wasn't sure what to do with it.
So, I got the movie now (oh, the Internet and wonders of piracy). I still haven't watched it. I'm afraid I'll be disappointed, although I'm curious. Some part of me believes that it's fine as it is now - I have found what I was searching for, but there is no need to ruin that one memory. Albeit I know that in the end, my curiosity will get the upper hand.
I remember sitting in the room back then - heavy air, it was raining outside, I think. I was spending that summer in countryside (although not with my relatives, but with my childhood's friends relatives/acquaintances). Someone had rented one of the Star Wars movies and that cartoon was taped in there, too - now that I know what kind of cartoon that was, I highly doubt that they would have shown that on TV (though some of our own animation stuff is quite fucked up) - besides, we were either still in Soviet Union or just out of it, so I assume this stuff wasn't very legal.
I only vaguely recall the movie itself, just some scenes - I can't even tell what was the story about or who were the main characters. What I mostly recall is how I felt about it - some odd sadness, confusion, feeling of dread and something else, too. I'm thinking it's those feelings which are to blame why I remember this event at all - something of that might have been new to me and I wasn't sure what to do with it.
So, I got the movie now (oh, the Internet and wonders of piracy). I still haven't watched it. I'm afraid I'll be disappointed, although I'm curious. Some part of me believes that it's fine as it is now - I have found what I was searching for, but there is no need to ruin that one memory. Albeit I know that in the end, my curiosity will get the upper hand.