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After nearly a year of living completely alone, I hoped I'd be used to it by now, but lonely nights really bother me. I want to escape this "can't relate to anyone" lifestyle. I've got to want to fake it more. blah. It hit me hard today when I had to think of nearby friends who I'd like to travel with during my summer vaca - and after racking my brain to come up with the recepients of the message, the majority weren't available to travel and the others didn't respond yet. I await. I guess I wish I didn't so badly disrespect those who find nothing more to do in life than drink, drink, and repeat. And on the other hand I wish I could better relate to the others. fuuuuuuh.
Trip to Osaka was good. That's such a nice area - Osaka, Kyoto, Nara, etc. Not highly populated, clean, full of culture. I wouldn't mind living in Japan. I am overly impressed with Japan. I don't understand why the US is such a melting pot. More people ought to flock to Japan or other culturally-rich industrialized areas. With all the recent to-do with healthcare, I can't believe more Americans haven't already fleed the madness that is HMOs and evil business-men doctors/ insurance companies. Blah...
Not to sound anti-American, but I personally plan on seeing what all the rest of the world offers and if the time comes to settle down, we'll see when and where it happens.
Anyway, the Korea blog will eventually have an update on that. Found a place through couchsurfing. Great site.
Read the latest issue of National Geographic on the plane - in between freaking out and asking the stranger next to me to hold my hand (I'm serious, this was embarrasing and seemed to be my natural reaction to take-off) - and I have determined that it's my favorite non-music magazine. If my interest in journalism remains I will keep my sights set on National Geographic and travel guides like Lonely Planet.
Speaking of loneliness, I had a football player badly trying to pick me up at the airport after landing. It was miserable for him and I both.
First of all, I think he and his friends had me picked out as some kind of bet because before boarding I heard one yell "Yo Ian! That's our target!" with a thumb pointed behind him in my direction. Anyway. This dude wouldn't let up after the most obvious signals on earth. I'm kind of glad I'm getting more surly as I get older, getting what I want and getting out of unwanted situations is nice.
The dude's first attempt to get to know me included stating at least 5 times "I ain't never met a white girl from DC" ok. Other observations about me (that were supposedly to be flirtatious?) included:
"What chu in a band or somethin? I see you got the rockabilly thing going on"
- "Nah, I'm not really into rockabilly"
"Oh I saw your shoes and you got some kinda band on your jacket . ."
- "Yeah, I'm not into rockabilly"
"I see you got that National Geographic, I know you can't read, Stephanie" ... does this spark flirting in most cases?
*after I offered a fist-bump as a goodbye gesture*
"Oh a fist bump. I mean I got a fist bump after my HS prom. That was cold." - I'm sorry? I didn't realize I was compensating your failed HS prom night after knowing you for 10 min total.
I manged to shake him off eventually but I found this situation funny in an umcomfortable way. Hey, at least I know I'm good enough for a random football player fuck. The most exciting thing to happen in my love life since the rape kiss in my kitchen 3 months ago or whatever. Woohoo.
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RIP Michael Jackson.
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I remember lying next to my cd player in 4th and 5th grade studying the lyrics in Dangerous.
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