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wow.
my coteacher must be insane.
I can't stand his mood swings!
Some days he's joking with me and laughing.
Some days he comes in and slams the door and doesn't say hi and just starts criticising right off the bat.
I don't know what the deal was today, but I am still getting over the fuckin flu - I'm already confused as hell and his attitude fucked with me more than I would've liked to have let it.
He talks to me like I am a child and I listen.
I don't know how to polietly ask "Where is this coming from?" and "You didn't say anything before", etc.
He'll say "Now an days . . . your teaching is not good" ok?? what? Now an days? Like...today? Yesterday? Why didn't you say anything when something went wrong?
I feel like I'm doing nothing different and you come out of nowhere telling me everything is different.
If you think your degrading messages are making me upset? Well you are right.
I need to not let it get to me.
I mean, I don't feel I deserve to be talked to like I'm a child, and I'm not sure why our "co-teaching" should be me teaching 80% of the time...(which is what he said today)
But whatever.
I've gotta be like a duck's back and let that shit roll off.
damn that got me worked up.
I want to go home.
I want to appreciate where I'm at, but.........nah.. I want to go home.
I guess I'm not exactly cut out for this.
Teaching ESL, Korea, working with an anal co-teacher, the pollution, the over crowding, the germs, the disrespect from children, the disrespect from the anal co-teacher.
Yeah I'm admitting I'm not cut out for this.
At the same time, however, I don't know what I am cut out for.
So when it is time to go home in 10 months (prob the longest 10 months of my life), at this point I have just about no clue what I will be doing.
I'm focusing on that these days just as much as I am focusing on not punching my co-teacher...
I miss you, U.S.
my coteacher must be insane.
I can't stand his mood swings!
Some days he's joking with me and laughing.
Some days he comes in and slams the door and doesn't say hi and just starts criticising right off the bat.
I don't know what the deal was today, but I am still getting over the fuckin flu - I'm already confused as hell and his attitude fucked with me more than I would've liked to have let it.
He talks to me like I am a child and I listen.
I don't know how to polietly ask "Where is this coming from?" and "You didn't say anything before", etc.
He'll say "Now an days . . . your teaching is not good" ok?? what? Now an days? Like...today? Yesterday? Why didn't you say anything when something went wrong?
I feel like I'm doing nothing different and you come out of nowhere telling me everything is different.
If you think your degrading messages are making me upset? Well you are right.
I need to not let it get to me.
I mean, I don't feel I deserve to be talked to like I'm a child, and I'm not sure why our "co-teaching" should be me teaching 80% of the time...(which is what he said today)
But whatever.
I've gotta be like a duck's back and let that shit roll off.
damn that got me worked up.
I want to go home.
I want to appreciate where I'm at, but.........nah.. I want to go home.
I guess I'm not exactly cut out for this.
Teaching ESL, Korea, working with an anal co-teacher, the pollution, the over crowding, the germs, the disrespect from children, the disrespect from the anal co-teacher.
Yeah I'm admitting I'm not cut out for this.
At the same time, however, I don't know what I am cut out for.
So when it is time to go home in 10 months (prob the longest 10 months of my life), at this point I have just about no clue what I will be doing.
I'm focusing on that these days just as much as I am focusing on not punching my co-teacher...
I miss you, U.S.