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It's not you. I'm not trying to avoid you or anyone else for that matter. I've a lot going on with my wife being sent away and the fact that I wont get to see my baby for awhile. I've just been in a mood where half time all I wanna do is drink myself into oblivion, but I realize that I'm better than that.
Then there are other times when I just want to be left alone, but I want to talk to someone, anyone, but I never know what to say.
Then there is the fact that I've been coming to terms with certain aspects of my relationships with people and I'm afraid, that all I'm doing is pushing people away for no other reason than the fact that I wanna be alone because for awhile I'm not going to have anyone come home to.
I love you more than anything Evenstar, you've always know that. no matter how hard I tried to hide it. You always knew what to say to me...and now...I...just wish maybe if I could turn back the hands of time and things would have worked out, but all i do is think about shit i dont need to think about no matter how hard I try. Because I have more important things to think about it. so yeah, there it is, that's why've been so antisocial lately.
Then there are other times when I just want to be left alone, but I want to talk to someone, anyone, but I never know what to say.
Then there is the fact that I've been coming to terms with certain aspects of my relationships with people and I'm afraid, that all I'm doing is pushing people away for no other reason than the fact that I wanna be alone because for awhile I'm not going to have anyone come home to.
I love you more than anything Evenstar, you've always know that. no matter how hard I tried to hide it. You always knew what to say to me...and now...I...just wish maybe if I could turn back the hands of time and things would have worked out, but all i do is think about shit i dont need to think about no matter how hard I try. Because I have more important things to think about it. so yeah, there it is, that's why've been so antisocial lately.