nowadays, i'm always sick.
i'm ill.
something is wrong with me.
i don't feel up to par, but neither does anyone else.
and it's killing me from the inside.
i'm sick because i'm ill.
i'm sick of having to pee every 5 minutes because of all the liquids i'm consuming to try and get better.
i'm sick of getting into fights with my mother about nothing, and taking meds that make me feel weird while i'm in these fights and cursing because i can't control myself.
and i'm sick of her taking it the wrong way and kicking me out.
i'm sick of all this work i have to do all the time, even if i'm feeling bad.
i'm sick of not being able to stay after school when i absolutely have to because of this illness that plagues me so, each and every week.
i'm sick of the same old music playing over and over and not getting better- like it used to.
i'm sick of having no one to talk to about all this.
i'm sick of not enough people caring about my life to listen to me.
i'm sick of people giving me crap about nothing.
i'm sick of all the complaints being made.
i'm sick of this mucus build up in my chest that i can't get out of me.
i'm sick of worrying that i'll be diseased for the rest of my life.
i'm sick of the state of the world.
i'm sick of it making me wonder if things will ever be better.
i'm sick of not feeling well every day.
i'm sick of looking like shit every day because of that.
i'm sick of the pain inside of me. the physical pain.
i'm sick of useless noises and useless things that need to just go away.
i'm sick of these tissues that make my face raw and red because they don't have moisterizer in them, which i would have taken with me if i wasn't so mad at my mother when i left.
i'm sick of the lights being on and wasting electricity.
i'm sick of violence and people hitting their kids and thinking it's the right thing to do.
i'm sick of having to resort to drugs to make me feel better but make my health worse.
i'm sick of addiction and loss of motivation.
i'm sick of people giving strangers things that are most important to them. like their wealth, like their time, like their soul.
but most of all, i'm sick of myself.
why can't i just feel really good one day?
and have all of that disappear.
and be healthy.
something is wrong with me.
i don't feel up to par, but neither does anyone else.
and it's killing me from the inside.
i'm sick because i'm ill.
i'm sick of having to pee every 5 minutes because of all the liquids i'm consuming to try and get better.
i'm sick of getting into fights with my mother about nothing, and taking meds that make me feel weird while i'm in these fights and cursing because i can't control myself.
and i'm sick of her taking it the wrong way and kicking me out.
i'm sick of all this work i have to do all the time, even if i'm feeling bad.
i'm sick of not being able to stay after school when i absolutely have to because of this illness that plagues me so, each and every week.
i'm sick of the same old music playing over and over and not getting better- like it used to.
i'm sick of having no one to talk to about all this.
i'm sick of not enough people caring about my life to listen to me.
i'm sick of people giving me crap about nothing.
i'm sick of all the complaints being made.
i'm sick of this mucus build up in my chest that i can't get out of me.
i'm sick of worrying that i'll be diseased for the rest of my life.
i'm sick of the state of the world.
i'm sick of it making me wonder if things will ever be better.
i'm sick of not feeling well every day.
i'm sick of looking like shit every day because of that.
i'm sick of the pain inside of me. the physical pain.
i'm sick of useless noises and useless things that need to just go away.
i'm sick of these tissues that make my face raw and red because they don't have moisterizer in them, which i would have taken with me if i wasn't so mad at my mother when i left.
i'm sick of the lights being on and wasting electricity.
i'm sick of violence and people hitting their kids and thinking it's the right thing to do.
i'm sick of having to resort to drugs to make me feel better but make my health worse.
i'm sick of addiction and loss of motivation.
i'm sick of people giving strangers things that are most important to them. like their wealth, like their time, like their soul.
but most of all, i'm sick of myself.
why can't i just feel really good one day?
and have all of that disappear.
and be healthy.