i want so badly to believe that there is truth, that love is real
there could be nothing better
...let's grow old together
i want a lover that...
//i can see as perfect although he's human, and whose imperfections make him even more beautiful.
//is also fond of great music [no matter what the genre] and who likes to go to shows with me...and who protects me from all the hXc kids when they come out swingin' :[...
//can let loose and be silly with me, and not care about what others may think.
//likes to dance (!)
//can sing to me all of my favorite songs, [no matter how bad he THINKS his voice is].
//is so in sync with me, that we constantly finish each other's sentences and/or thoughts.
//brings a smile to my face when i think of him, because i'll realize that i'm the luckiest girl alive.
//would surprise me by showing up at work randomly, making my day 683727892 times better just by visiting.
//doesn't mind the fact that i am a seven-year old trapped in a 19-year old's body, who likes to watch cartoons on saturday mornings, run through the sprinklers, go to Disneyland, have food fights, go to the park and swing on swings, and play hide and go seek til the sun sets.
//would send me flowers, [he'd be the first], for no particular reason at all. and they'd have a cute little note attached, with an inside joke of ours inside, just to let me know i'm on his mind.
//is cultured, and who doesn't think i'm nerdy/weird/boring for being amazed by museums. someone who appreciates them as much as i do. and he'd take me to the getty and bring food he'd made, and we'd have a picnic on the lawns near the gardens. then we'd cuddle.
//likes to cuddle, just cuddle, a lot.
//would be happy and have a good time just staying in and just watching movies with me.
//appreciates me for the woman i am, [and is accepting my MANY flaws and does not seek to rid me of them], and for all that i will be, who is my biggest fan, and who lifts me up and reminds me when i forget about all of those things.
//makes me a better person just by being a part of my life, and who helps me to see the beauty in all things.
//loves me as much as I love him, although i think that will never happen..
i don't have to love
he's got to be out there, right?
right??