sleeping close to the line
title: sleeping close to the line
characters: Dan/Blair
rating/word count: 571/G
one-line excerpt: Is it so horrible to want to be with him? To really and truly be with him?
I feel I'm falling deeper every day ~ Sara Jackson Holman
Washing dishes.
How could that one mundane
menial.
common.
chore.
change everything?
It was simple. All she was doing was teaching Humphrey how to properly wash wine glasses and somehow it turned into something else.
Five weeks of something else.
of movies. of bickering. of cuisine. and literature and fashion. specifically his fashion or lack there of. and anything that mattered. anything they deemed worthy of bickering over. meaning everything.
Their last night alone together they watch a movie.
They are curled up on his couch under the only blanket of his that she doesn't hate.
Blair. It is a blanket.
A possibly germ covered blanket that you pulled out of that abyss you call a closet.
Sometime during the movie they succumb to sleep.
She wakes to the feel of his pointy shoulder digging into the side of her head.
Yet she doesn't move.
He is still asleep. His chest rising and falling as she watches.
There is something so tempting about it that keeps pulling at her nerves. She wants to snuggle into that chest. To carefully lift his arm and place her ear just above his heart.
Is it so horrible to want that?
Is it so horrible to just want to be with him? To really and truly be with him?
He's amazing Blair. I don't think I've ever felt this way before. I mean I have but this feels different.
Serena. Slow down. Who are you talking about?
Dan. Dan Humphrey.
Humphrey? As in Humphrey from Brooklyn? Serena. You can't be serious. The boy has no sense of style, has no status, and he's from Brooklyn.
Blair. Be nice I like him. You don't know him. I'm telling you he's special and he's wonderful and he's....
I get it. You love him. Whatever. I make no promises to be nice.
She bites her lip. Yes, of course it's horrible but she can't help what she wants. Besides thinking about it isn't as horrible. Acting on it is the crime and she already knows that she's not going to cross that line.
Serena's always been the one to cross that line.
More like dances over it.
She can't help it. It's who she is and that's why people just people just smile and tell her that it's okay. That she messed up but it can be fixed.
Blair isn't like Serena. When she crosses the line people blame her. They hold her accountable.
No. Blair isn't like Serena at all.
Dan stirs.
She closes her eyes and pretends.
He freezes when he realizes the position that they are in.
Then he relaxes and lifts his arm so that she can lay her head comfortably on his chest.
Dan kisses the top of her hair right where her headband ends.
She snuggles into him and keeps pretending to be asleep.
It's not horrible if he's the one doing it.
Right?
You're not so bad. Waldorf.
She hears him whisper.
Not so bad at all.
No. it's not horrible if he's the one doing it. it's just more heartbreaking.
Blair falls back to sleep and dreams of being like Serena. Of getting what she wants even if its just this once. If Dan Humphrey is the one thing that she ever gets over Serena she'd be fine with that. He's the only thing of hers she wants anyway. The only thing she's ever wanted this much in her life
.
characters: Dan/Blair
rating/word count: 571/G
one-line excerpt: Is it so horrible to want to be with him? To really and truly be with him?
I feel I'm falling deeper every day ~ Sara Jackson Holman
Washing dishes.
How could that one mundane
menial.
common.
chore.
change everything?
It was simple. All she was doing was teaching Humphrey how to properly wash wine glasses and somehow it turned into something else.
Five weeks of something else.
of movies. of bickering. of cuisine. and literature and fashion. specifically his fashion or lack there of. and anything that mattered. anything they deemed worthy of bickering over. meaning everything.
Their last night alone together they watch a movie.
They are curled up on his couch under the only blanket of his that she doesn't hate.
Blair. It is a blanket.
A possibly germ covered blanket that you pulled out of that abyss you call a closet.
Sometime during the movie they succumb to sleep.
She wakes to the feel of his pointy shoulder digging into the side of her head.
Yet she doesn't move.
He is still asleep. His chest rising and falling as she watches.
There is something so tempting about it that keeps pulling at her nerves. She wants to snuggle into that chest. To carefully lift his arm and place her ear just above his heart.
Is it so horrible to want that?
Is it so horrible to just want to be with him? To really and truly be with him?
He's amazing Blair. I don't think I've ever felt this way before. I mean I have but this feels different.
Serena. Slow down. Who are you talking about?
Dan. Dan Humphrey.
Humphrey? As in Humphrey from Brooklyn? Serena. You can't be serious. The boy has no sense of style, has no status, and he's from Brooklyn.
Blair. Be nice I like him. You don't know him. I'm telling you he's special and he's wonderful and he's....
I get it. You love him. Whatever. I make no promises to be nice.
She bites her lip. Yes, of course it's horrible but she can't help what she wants. Besides thinking about it isn't as horrible. Acting on it is the crime and she already knows that she's not going to cross that line.
Serena's always been the one to cross that line.
More like dances over it.
She can't help it. It's who she is and that's why people just people just smile and tell her that it's okay. That she messed up but it can be fixed.
Blair isn't like Serena. When she crosses the line people blame her. They hold her accountable.
No. Blair isn't like Serena at all.
Dan stirs.
She closes her eyes and pretends.
He freezes when he realizes the position that they are in.
Then he relaxes and lifts his arm so that she can lay her head comfortably on his chest.
Dan kisses the top of her hair right where her headband ends.
She snuggles into him and keeps pretending to be asleep.
It's not horrible if he's the one doing it.
Right?
You're not so bad. Waldorf.
She hears him whisper.
Not so bad at all.
No. it's not horrible if he's the one doing it. it's just more heartbreaking.
Blair falls back to sleep and dreams of being like Serena. Of getting what she wants even if its just this once. If Dan Humphrey is the one thing that she ever gets over Serena she'd be fine with that. He's the only thing of hers she wants anyway. The only thing she's ever wanted this much in her life
.