May 11, 2004 22:03
i've been really tired at work lately, and we've been driving around a lot the pass couple days..and i love riding in cars with people driving..totally relaxes me so its hard to stay awake. Maybe ill try to go to bed early tomorrow night..even though i wont and you know why
i don't really do much at all now...its almost like i want it that way though so im not complaining. work just takes up so much time, at least its not a horrible job.
i wanna eat alll the time, and i always want pop now a days, im trying to control it..i wish i could just like water..would make life easier.
I wish you could pick everyday what type of person you want to be that day..like as soon as you wake up have list you can choose from. its funny cause i know a ton of people would still be pissed off or depressed. I think most of my life i would pick blank...just to make the days go by.
everyone always says that life goes by fast and what not..but fuck that...everything happens so damn slow..in fact, im pretty sure the only thing that can really happen in a instant..is death. ironic.
Practice has been kind of a pissy hassle lately and considering we only practice twice a week..thats pathetic.
tony said something today about doing something completely crazy, and it being that crazy having it actually work..and i realized i've never had anything like that..maybe someday soon...
i wish someone could tell me what it means to be called a tool. I hear people say it all the time...i don't get it..and whenever i ask..its never answered
i've never had a goal for myself that was realistic and possible..its kinda nice to finally have one.
what else do you need?
Joe