Okay, that last entry was so long and here I am about to write another, so I'll put it under a cut. I just received this e-mail the is sooo rant worthy wow...okay... I don't even ... yeah sorry, ( cut. )
Oh man is that horrible. I can't believe that e-mail. Thank God my Grandmother doesn't e-mail me. but then again if I was halfway around the world then she probably would.
Anyways, I hate to say "I know what you feel like" because truthfully I don't. I never did have things thrown at me. ;D Not but seriously, I know what it's like to be the only person that likes something. I was ridiculed all throughout school just because I like Sailor Moon and anime in general. I hid most of it until recently I got a few friends into it. But now that I'm listening to Jrock I can feel my friends thinking that I just "getting that much deeper" into it.
I got into a fight with my boyfriend last night because he doesn't like Jrock and he said that's all I ever listen to/talk about these days. It made me cry because not even the closest person to me likes it. I don't have a single soul here that likes anything other than HYDE (on of my friend's actually likes his music because of me). But I just know that they all think I'm weird.
That's why I want to go to Japan as well. It's always been my dream and I never thought it was possible until I found you're journal. I'm being completely serious here. I never had the courage to just dive in and do something like that but now I want to so badly and I feel like I'll do anything to go. I'm ready to leave all of my family, old friends, and even my boyfriend behind because none of them understand the real me and what I like.
You're the only person I have said this to and I pray to god that none of my friends find this. ;-; But anyways, thank you for what you've done for me and I hope you get back as soon as possible.
Please don't dress up in costumes like you did before you left.
I think that was the most insulting part. (Other than questioning your intelligence. -_-;; )
Ahh baby...I feel your pain. haha I was ridiculed all through school too. It wasn't until recently that a few of my friends got into j-music...but no offense to them....they're still 'normal'. They dress pretty okay and look normal and retain normal friendships and such... I'm glad I inspired you to do this. As soon as I heard about this company I knew I had to at least give it a shot. Everyone thought I wouldn't get it and that I was stupid for trying, but I wanted to so badly I didn't care. I know to some people it sounds stupid for me to sit here and say stuff like "I'm not happy in america, I was meant to live in Japan" but its true. And people can say "you should be able to do what you want and not let others get you down" but no matter how much anyone says it doesn't bother them...it does. If you're constantly having that much negative energy thrown at you, its gonna rub off. I can't stand having to change who I am to please others...and I hate having people ask that of me. I know I have my 6 or so friends that will support me, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm gonna have 50 million other people trying to get me down. Isn't that whole thing just insulting? I hate that...;-;
Anyways, I hate to say "I know what you feel like" because truthfully I don't. I never did have things thrown at me. ;D Not but seriously, I know what it's like to be the only person that likes something. I was ridiculed all throughout school just because I like Sailor Moon and anime in general. I hid most of it until recently I got a few friends into it. But now that I'm listening to Jrock I can feel my friends thinking that I just "getting that much deeper" into it.
I got into a fight with my boyfriend last night because he doesn't like Jrock and he said that's all I ever listen to/talk about these days. It made me cry because not even the closest person to me likes it. I don't have a single soul here that likes anything other than HYDE (on of my friend's actually likes his music because of me). But I just know that they all think I'm weird.
That's why I want to go to Japan as well. It's always been my dream and I never thought it was possible until I found you're journal. I'm being completely serious here. I never had the courage to just dive in and do something like that but now I want to so badly and I feel like I'll do anything to go. I'm ready to leave all of my family, old friends, and even my boyfriend behind because none of them understand the real me and what I like.
You're the only person I have said this to and I pray to god that none of my friends find this. ;-; But anyways, thank you for what you've done for me and I hope you get back as soon as possible.
Please don't dress up in costumes like you did before you left.
I think that was the most insulting part. (Other than questioning your intelligence. -_-;; )
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I'm glad I inspired you to do this. As soon as I heard about this company I knew I had to at least give it a shot. Everyone thought I wouldn't get it and that I was stupid for trying, but I wanted to so badly I didn't care. I know to some people it sounds stupid for me to sit here and say stuff like "I'm not happy in america, I was meant to live in Japan" but its true. And people can say "you should be able to do what you want and not let others get you down" but no matter how much anyone says it doesn't bother them...it does. If you're constantly having that much negative energy thrown at you, its gonna rub off. I can't stand having to change who I am to please others...and I hate having people ask that of me. I know I have my 6 or so friends that will support me, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm gonna have 50 million other people trying to get me down.
Isn't that whole thing just insulting? I hate that...;-;
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