For the past few months, I've felt that the only things that ever happen in my life are tabletop RPGs once or twice a week, work, sleep, and the desire to "do something." Doing something isn't neccesarily defined, however. It ends up feeling kinda' empty.
So.. I've been thinking a -lot- about anything and everthing about who I am and stuff, and what I've discovered is that I've changed in that I like to do stuff with other people more than by myself now; whereas in the past I enjoyed singular activity more.
Well, I can't blame people for not enjoying what I enjoy (types of gaming, skating, walking, hiking, random-adventure, etc. etc. ), but I'm afraid I'm falling into the Mr. Rodgers #1 mode where I "See a problem, and I fix it."
In this case, I'm tired of waiting for people to come along who sincerely enjoy doing similar things that I enjoy; and I'm feeling like I'm about to drop into "omg-fixing'the problem" mode where I refuse to commit to any specific action on any specific day and do whatever I want when I want, regardless of the time of day, if I want to do it. usually by myself unfortunately. But *nod* I sit here thinking of all the things I love doing and experiencing, and how I'm rendered unable to do said things because of this specific job and my current mindset of -needing- to do stuff with other people in order to enjoy it.
I dunno. I'm just hellishly sleepy and pessimistic right now, and should probably shut up till tomorrow morning when I'm not as blah.
So.. I've been thinking a -lot- about anything and everthing about who I am and stuff, and what I've discovered is that I've changed in that I like to do stuff with other people more than by myself now; whereas in the past I enjoyed singular activity more.
Well, I can't blame people for not enjoying what I enjoy (types of gaming, skating, walking, hiking, random-adventure, etc. etc. ), but I'm afraid I'm falling into the Mr. Rodgers #1 mode where I "See a problem, and I fix it."
In this case, I'm tired of waiting for people to come along who sincerely enjoy doing similar things that I enjoy; and I'm feeling like I'm about to drop into "omg-fixing'the problem" mode where I refuse to commit to any specific action on any specific day and do whatever I want when I want, regardless of the time of day, if I want to do it. usually by myself unfortunately. But *nod* I sit here thinking of all the things I love doing and experiencing, and how I'm rendered unable to do said things because of this specific job and my current mindset of -needing- to do stuff with other people in order to enjoy it.
I dunno. I'm just hellishly sleepy and pessimistic right now, and should probably shut up till tomorrow morning when I'm not as blah.
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