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So, hello to my eighteenth birthday.
Today I'm going to talk about tattoos, specifically: My new one. because everyone asks and I find it hard to explain with how many levels there are to why I got it.
First level, the shallowest: When I play James Norrington, he has the same tattoo on his chest, and I do love connecting to James as he's really a very calming, efficient influence. He's also one of my first, most beloved canon pups. I like carrying a little James with me, because It's like carrying your old security blanket. It makes me feel safe.
Second, slightly less shallow level: It was my mother's present to me, and it symbolises my eighteenth birthday. Eighteen lines in the compass rose. And it's a peice of my mom I'll have forever, which is also comforting and makes me happy.
Third, existential level: The compass rose, for me, is symbolising the fact that I'm about to set out on my own. I've heard people say that you shouldn't get a tattoo until you know who you are, but I never really believed it was possible to understand who you were in the first place. The compass rose stands for direction, and the fact that I'm still a little lost, but I can find my way. It's the end of high school, of the institution that I've spent the last thirteen years of my life in, and I'm off the map-- here there be dragons. In this world, it's best to always know north from south, you know? So my tattoo symbolizes that, in the end, I'll find my way. If I can read a map.
Amd that is all of the sappy monologuing I can mange today.
Today I'm going to talk about tattoos, specifically: My new one. because everyone asks and I find it hard to explain with how many levels there are to why I got it.
First level, the shallowest: When I play James Norrington, he has the same tattoo on his chest, and I do love connecting to James as he's really a very calming, efficient influence. He's also one of my first, most beloved canon pups. I like carrying a little James with me, because It's like carrying your old security blanket. It makes me feel safe.
Second, slightly less shallow level: It was my mother's present to me, and it symbolises my eighteenth birthday. Eighteen lines in the compass rose. And it's a peice of my mom I'll have forever, which is also comforting and makes me happy.
Third, existential level: The compass rose, for me, is symbolising the fact that I'm about to set out on my own. I've heard people say that you shouldn't get a tattoo until you know who you are, but I never really believed it was possible to understand who you were in the first place. The compass rose stands for direction, and the fact that I'm still a little lost, but I can find my way. It's the end of high school, of the institution that I've spent the last thirteen years of my life in, and I'm off the map-- here there be dragons. In this world, it's best to always know north from south, you know? So my tattoo symbolizes that, in the end, I'll find my way. If I can read a map.
Amd that is all of the sappy monologuing I can mange today.