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Nnngh.
My life has just gone to pot and I've likely lost several friends as well as made it TERRIBLY AWKWARD to do theatre stuff.
Right, so..I like Matt. Liked Matt. Whatever. This slutty bitch Andrea (terrible name) was all over him and apparently Rachel caught them snogging. While I was in the bathroom bemoaning the fact that I break everything my hands touch (I had just dropped a shitload of plates) she chewed Matt out and TOLD HIM I LIKED HIM.So now I can't even look at Matt and he spent the rest of rehersal in the booth and already there are PEOPLE THAT KNOW. And I have class with him tomorrow. And we're supposed to all have a theatre breakfast.
So that means
1.) Matt and I can't even talk, let alone hang out with all the awkward,
2.) Kara's going to be a bitch because she used to go out with Matt.
3.) I have no desire to speak to Rachel.
4.) EVERYONE ELSE IN THE THEATRE KNOWS. THEY WILL CONSOLE ME. I HATE THAT.
Kara's acting, Matt's stage Left with Andrea, and I'm the general gopher for both wings. CONSTANT CONTACT. And Katie will hate me because she's Matt's best friend and then she'll never let me do lights again...This is Katie we're talking about. Anyone who expresses intrest in her boys will get on the shitlist.
I'm going to the breakfast tomorrow, and I'm going to act like nothing happened. Besides avoiding Rach and Matt, of course.
Also, I have not cried this much in the space of two hours since I was like 7.
My life has just gone to pot and I've likely lost several friends as well as made it TERRIBLY AWKWARD to do theatre stuff.
Right, so..I like Matt. Liked Matt. Whatever. This slutty bitch Andrea (terrible name) was all over him and apparently Rachel caught them snogging. While I was in the bathroom bemoaning the fact that I break everything my hands touch (I had just dropped a shitload of plates) she chewed Matt out and TOLD HIM I LIKED HIM.So now I can't even look at Matt and he spent the rest of rehersal in the booth and already there are PEOPLE THAT KNOW. And I have class with him tomorrow. And we're supposed to all have a theatre breakfast.
So that means
1.) Matt and I can't even talk, let alone hang out with all the awkward,
2.) Kara's going to be a bitch because she used to go out with Matt.
3.) I have no desire to speak to Rachel.
4.) EVERYONE ELSE IN THE THEATRE KNOWS. THEY WILL CONSOLE ME. I HATE THAT.
Kara's acting, Matt's stage Left with Andrea, and I'm the general gopher for both wings. CONSTANT CONTACT. And Katie will hate me because she's Matt's best friend and then she'll never let me do lights again...This is Katie we're talking about. Anyone who expresses intrest in her boys will get on the shitlist.
I'm going to the breakfast tomorrow, and I'm going to act like nothing happened. Besides avoiding Rach and Matt, of course.
Also, I have not cried this much in the space of two hours since I was like 7.