At least you know you got my attention...
Today I:
-Ran 4 miles
-Ate lunch at Wendy's with no time to shower after my 4 mile run. (yeah..gross. I know. Bleck, but I was hungry. haha)
-worked on homework
-Thought about everything for the 500 millionth time.
-Tried again to find a dress for the wedding. (Failure)
-Went and saw Napoleon Dynomite with someone. Cute Movie. Very funny ending. And it had Shondrella from GBB in it! Not that anyone has a freaking clue what I'm talking about...
-Decided for the 600th time in the past year that I'm going to become a nun...even though I'm not catholic..or really religious at all in the organized religion sense.
-Cried so hard I threw up. Gross. And now I have a puffy face and a headache. Life is so much fun these days.
-Was confused even more.
-Realized I seem to be the only one that likes clarity in life.
-Got chewed out by a neighbor.
All in all, today was kind of blecky. I was all excited because I was finally going to get to spend some time with a friend of mine who I hadn't REALLY talked to or seen in about 2 months. We went to see that movie at 4:30 and then I thought we might go somewhere and just talk...dinner...coffee...something? I just really like to feel like I have a support system these days and I like being able to just go somewhere quiet and talk to people, but when the movie got out he said he had to go eat dinner with his family. I should be understanding, but I honestly don't know when I'll see him again and I just thought since we hadn't really talked in so long that he'd want to talk to me, but I guess not. :-/ I mean I don't think he meant to do this, but I just felt kind of worthless at the time. I mean I've been feeling pretty down lately, so I guess it just hurts when you are excited all day about something and then it just kind of crashes and burns. I mean he makes me feel like I'm asking for too much for just an afternoon of his time and that just makes me feel down.
He became a really good friend of mine over the summer and I thought we had become pretty good friends, but when school started up it became all sorts of sucky. I feel like I'm fucking stalking him. I write all these really long e-mails about what is going on in my life and whatnot and wondering what he's up to and whatnot and the replies I get are maybe like 2-4 sentences long with not a helluva lot of info. I know his life isn't that boring. He never elaborates on what's going on or anything and for some reason that really bugs me.
I just feel like I'm losing a friend. I've already pretty much lost contact with one friend this year. I really don't want to make it two, but I don't do the one-sided friendship thing and that's what it feels like it's going to come to. *sadface* See, now maybe if we could just TALK SOMETIME I wouldn't feel this way, but alas time and talking seems to be an unatainable thing between me and him.
I mean I know he's busy at school, but since there has been 3 weeks of no classes, I thought there might be some time for Kelly Talk. Oh well.
Wow. I really didn't mean to type that much about that. I just felt the need to vent. I need a hug. Someone hug me. Haha.
*hugs for everyone that actually read all this crap*
Bah. I'm going to sleep because I have to be at the base early to get my new ID card. Me and a picture in the AM? Should be scary...
-Ran 4 miles
-Ate lunch at Wendy's with no time to shower after my 4 mile run. (yeah..gross. I know. Bleck, but I was hungry. haha)
-worked on homework
-Thought about everything for the 500 millionth time.
-Tried again to find a dress for the wedding. (Failure)
-Went and saw Napoleon Dynomite with someone. Cute Movie. Very funny ending. And it had Shondrella from GBB in it! Not that anyone has a freaking clue what I'm talking about...
-Decided for the 600th time in the past year that I'm going to become a nun...even though I'm not catholic..or really religious at all in the organized religion sense.
-Cried so hard I threw up. Gross. And now I have a puffy face and a headache. Life is so much fun these days.
-Was confused even more.
-Realized I seem to be the only one that likes clarity in life.
-Got chewed out by a neighbor.
All in all, today was kind of blecky. I was all excited because I was finally going to get to spend some time with a friend of mine who I hadn't REALLY talked to or seen in about 2 months. We went to see that movie at 4:30 and then I thought we might go somewhere and just talk...dinner...coffee...something? I just really like to feel like I have a support system these days and I like being able to just go somewhere quiet and talk to people, but when the movie got out he said he had to go eat dinner with his family. I should be understanding, but I honestly don't know when I'll see him again and I just thought since we hadn't really talked in so long that he'd want to talk to me, but I guess not. :-/ I mean I don't think he meant to do this, but I just felt kind of worthless at the time. I mean I've been feeling pretty down lately, so I guess it just hurts when you are excited all day about something and then it just kind of crashes and burns. I mean he makes me feel like I'm asking for too much for just an afternoon of his time and that just makes me feel down.
He became a really good friend of mine over the summer and I thought we had become pretty good friends, but when school started up it became all sorts of sucky. I feel like I'm fucking stalking him. I write all these really long e-mails about what is going on in my life and whatnot and wondering what he's up to and whatnot and the replies I get are maybe like 2-4 sentences long with not a helluva lot of info. I know his life isn't that boring. He never elaborates on what's going on or anything and for some reason that really bugs me.
I just feel like I'm losing a friend. I've already pretty much lost contact with one friend this year. I really don't want to make it two, but I don't do the one-sided friendship thing and that's what it feels like it's going to come to. *sadface* See, now maybe if we could just TALK SOMETIME I wouldn't feel this way, but alas time and talking seems to be an unatainable thing between me and him.
I mean I know he's busy at school, but since there has been 3 weeks of no classes, I thought there might be some time for Kelly Talk. Oh well.
Wow. I really didn't mean to type that much about that. I just felt the need to vent. I need a hug. Someone hug me. Haha.
*hugs for everyone that actually read all this crap*
Bah. I'm going to sleep because I have to be at the base early to get my new ID card. Me and a picture in the AM? Should be scary...