I never wanted it to hurt more than it should.
It's kind of crazy that 2 weeks has already gone by in school. I mean it's not that long, but it went by pretty fast, you know? And there are only 16 weeks in the semester, so that means that 1/8 of it is already over. Yippee! I can't wait until next semester when I'll have a better "not so spread out" schedule and I will be taking "better" classes.
I guess I should bring everybody up to date once again on my ever changing school plans. haha. I'm a cumpulsive mind changer. I know.
I'm dropping the whole health thing. No double major for me. I realized all I was doing was scrambling for any good reason to not graduate in a year because I thought somehow I would resurrect this idea of having a wonderful college experience.
I think it's too late for that though. haha. And I'm not going to stay in school for an extra 2 years just so I can graduate in the year I was "supposed" to.
This means that I could technically graduate next summer. Crazy. 19 with a bachelors degree. That should be wrong. haha. But anyways, I'm not going to do that. Next semester I'm going to bring back my love for philosophy and take at least one philosophy class.
And as much as I know I'm going to regret this, I'm gonna take another math class. I'll either jump on the calculus wagon or jump on the higher statistics wagon. I haven't decided yet. For once I think my dad was right. I threw away my talent for math because of one bad semester with non english speaking teachers and bad grades and I shouldn't have given up so easily. But, shhhh...don't tell him that. He'll think he won something...haha
But since I will now most likely be graduating NEXT fall, I have to take my summer load next summer. Blah. I really wanted to go home for the summer. I still might be able to. I can take classes in the Ft. Walton campus hopefully. *crosses fingers*
But I'm still going to be at UWF ALL of next year. (2005-2006) Even though I'll obtain my bachelors in the fall, I'll just move onto my masters in education in the spring, because I want to live on campus. And I also don't want to worry about applying for another school for a while. haha. I'm so sick of all that shit. I'd like to be at one school for more than a year, you know?! YOU KNOW?!
And believe it or not, I like UWF. I mean of course there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about being in Boston at BC, but I've accepted that and moved on. I don't think I had a chance anyways....Well at least telling myself that makes me feel better. haha. DEFENSE MECHANISMS! Aren't they a wondeful thing? Oh wonderful wonderful psychology.
But yeah. My plans haven't REALLY changed. I'm still planning on teaching psych in high school/college. I've just dropped the whole health thing.
I mean...I very well could be the worst example of health there is right now. Ok, maybe not the WORST, but for someone that is trying to tell others that they need help, I'm not doing so well...
Question:"Well doc, how do you stay so healthy?"
ME: "well you see, I only eat one real meal a day. I then subside on small foods that aren't very healthy to make it through the rest of the day or I just don't eat at all. I've also become totally dependent on Diet coke to stay awake. Yeah. I haven't really exercised for about 5 months. And I've smoked about 10 ciggarettes this week. Now. YOU STOP DOING ALL THOSE BAD THINGS MAKING YOU UNHEALTHY!"
Haha. Ok I thought that was funny.
ANYWAYS, I'm going home this weekend. I don't want to be stuck inside my apartment alone all weekend if that stupid storm comes through here. I'd drive myself insane.
AND I STILL NEED TO SEE MY PDA WHORE! God. GOOD GOD. I mean the last time I saw him was when I got my hair cut! And that was....A LONG ASS TIME AGO. haha *sigh*
I want to see that new movie "wicker park." I'm not sure what the hell it's about and that makes me mad. haha. I hate previews that just confuse you and make you want to spend 6 bucks to go see them and then they SUCK like 'the village'. haha. I'm kidding. The Village wasn't that bad. I just thought the end was kind of...LAME! I mean very creative, but LAME! haha WHO WOULD DO THAT?! CRAZY!!!
Anyways, I just have one class today. PERSONAL HEALTH. BLECK. Again, I don't know what I was thinking will all this health shit. I also thought it might help me to get control of my own health but it just makes me want to do things like smoke and eat peanut butter M&Ms for dinner. HAHA.
I have my first MAJOR test next week on Wednesday. Biological Psych. I'm so scared that I'm gonna fail. He seems like he really expects you to know EVERYTHING. I mean when we were rewieving he was like, "You need to know everything in the book and the notes. That's it!" I was like, "thanks bud. I couldn't learn ALL of that stuff in 10 YEARS if I had to...let alone a few days. Grrrrr."
Ok, I should probably go get ready to leave for my class.
And Steph, I admit it...I am addicted to CRACK. ;-) (Is it sad that's the first thing I remembered about that video?! hahahaha) Man I need help.
I guess I should bring everybody up to date once again on my ever changing school plans. haha. I'm a cumpulsive mind changer. I know.
I'm dropping the whole health thing. No double major for me. I realized all I was doing was scrambling for any good reason to not graduate in a year because I thought somehow I would resurrect this idea of having a wonderful college experience.
I think it's too late for that though. haha. And I'm not going to stay in school for an extra 2 years just so I can graduate in the year I was "supposed" to.
This means that I could technically graduate next summer. Crazy. 19 with a bachelors degree. That should be wrong. haha. But anyways, I'm not going to do that. Next semester I'm going to bring back my love for philosophy and take at least one philosophy class.
And as much as I know I'm going to regret this, I'm gonna take another math class. I'll either jump on the calculus wagon or jump on the higher statistics wagon. I haven't decided yet. For once I think my dad was right. I threw away my talent for math because of one bad semester with non english speaking teachers and bad grades and I shouldn't have given up so easily. But, shhhh...don't tell him that. He'll think he won something...haha
But since I will now most likely be graduating NEXT fall, I have to take my summer load next summer. Blah. I really wanted to go home for the summer. I still might be able to. I can take classes in the Ft. Walton campus hopefully. *crosses fingers*
But I'm still going to be at UWF ALL of next year. (2005-2006) Even though I'll obtain my bachelors in the fall, I'll just move onto my masters in education in the spring, because I want to live on campus. And I also don't want to worry about applying for another school for a while. haha. I'm so sick of all that shit. I'd like to be at one school for more than a year, you know?! YOU KNOW?!
And believe it or not, I like UWF. I mean of course there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about being in Boston at BC, but I've accepted that and moved on. I don't think I had a chance anyways....Well at least telling myself that makes me feel better. haha. DEFENSE MECHANISMS! Aren't they a wondeful thing? Oh wonderful wonderful psychology.
But yeah. My plans haven't REALLY changed. I'm still planning on teaching psych in high school/college. I've just dropped the whole health thing.
I mean...I very well could be the worst example of health there is right now. Ok, maybe not the WORST, but for someone that is trying to tell others that they need help, I'm not doing so well...
Question:"Well doc, how do you stay so healthy?"
ME: "well you see, I only eat one real meal a day. I then subside on small foods that aren't very healthy to make it through the rest of the day or I just don't eat at all. I've also become totally dependent on Diet coke to stay awake. Yeah. I haven't really exercised for about 5 months. And I've smoked about 10 ciggarettes this week. Now. YOU STOP DOING ALL THOSE BAD THINGS MAKING YOU UNHEALTHY!"
Haha. Ok I thought that was funny.
ANYWAYS, I'm going home this weekend. I don't want to be stuck inside my apartment alone all weekend if that stupid storm comes through here. I'd drive myself insane.
AND I STILL NEED TO SEE MY PDA WHORE! God. GOOD GOD. I mean the last time I saw him was when I got my hair cut! And that was....A LONG ASS TIME AGO. haha *sigh*
I want to see that new movie "wicker park." I'm not sure what the hell it's about and that makes me mad. haha. I hate previews that just confuse you and make you want to spend 6 bucks to go see them and then they SUCK like 'the village'. haha. I'm kidding. The Village wasn't that bad. I just thought the end was kind of...LAME! I mean very creative, but LAME! haha WHO WOULD DO THAT?! CRAZY!!!
Anyways, I just have one class today. PERSONAL HEALTH. BLECK. Again, I don't know what I was thinking will all this health shit. I also thought it might help me to get control of my own health but it just makes me want to do things like smoke and eat peanut butter M&Ms for dinner. HAHA.
I have my first MAJOR test next week on Wednesday. Biological Psych. I'm so scared that I'm gonna fail. He seems like he really expects you to know EVERYTHING. I mean when we were rewieving he was like, "You need to know everything in the book and the notes. That's it!" I was like, "thanks bud. I couldn't learn ALL of that stuff in 10 YEARS if I had to...let alone a few days. Grrrrr."
Ok, I should probably go get ready to leave for my class.
And Steph, I admit it...I am addicted to CRACK. ;-) (Is it sad that's the first thing I remembered about that video?! hahahaha) Man I need help.