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I feel I'm so tired as if I lived a thousand years now. I think I won't last very long if I don't change something quick. But it seems: what is it that I didn't see that is worth seeing ?
I'm sick of pretending I'm interested in something I'm not. But the point is that when I look
inside myself I don't see anything that really excites me -- I've forgotten what is it to be
sad or happy.
I live just because I cannot stop living.
I've seen a people killing their conciousness just to stop this nightmare...
How come I end up like this ?
Diagnosis and solution will be appreciated)
Although I hope it's just a single outburst -- but still these become
frighteningly frequent...
I'm sick of pretending I'm interested in something I'm not. But the point is that when I look
inside myself I don't see anything that really excites me -- I've forgotten what is it to be
sad or happy.
I live just because I cannot stop living.
I've seen a people killing their conciousness just to stop this nightmare...
How come I end up like this ?
Diagnosis and solution will be appreciated)
Although I hope it's just a single outburst -- but still these become
frighteningly frequent...