You got what you snooped for.
Love is such an interesting thing. You give someone your all, only to realize you were on a one way street.
I'm food with no flavor. A rainbow without color. A life without meaning.
I haven't felt this lost in a while. Since Ash and I broke up. I remember feeling like nothing. Feeling nothing. Just passing away the days hoping that maybe tomorrow will be better, next week, next month. It took me a year to get myself up. To fix myself. To remember that life does go on. That I was worth something. That I can be somebody's everything, anything.
And then I met Alice. A nice girl. A normal girl. A gorgeous woman.
She quickly became my everything. Of course as usual. But this seemed different. I finally found someone different. Someone I could possibly have something healthy with.
That was the only moment I realized that I could change. Drop all my bad habits like I used to drop girls.
And for what? That this is a lie. I'm just a game. A hobby. A job. Just something to pass the time with till something better comes along.
"I do love you" "That was a while ago"
How do you know when someone is lying or not? Is love even real? Or is it something created by the media to make our lives a bit more entertaining.
My brain says Go. Don't look back. And my heart, this old broken shriveled worthless thing, is torn once more between staying and going.
I've stayed before in previous relationship only to end up in worse scenarios.
Will this be different if I stay? I thought she was different.
Fucking Karma.
I'm food with no flavor. A rainbow without color. A life without meaning.
I haven't felt this lost in a while. Since Ash and I broke up. I remember feeling like nothing. Feeling nothing. Just passing away the days hoping that maybe tomorrow will be better, next week, next month. It took me a year to get myself up. To fix myself. To remember that life does go on. That I was worth something. That I can be somebody's everything, anything.
And then I met Alice. A nice girl. A normal girl. A gorgeous woman.
She quickly became my everything. Of course as usual. But this seemed different. I finally found someone different. Someone I could possibly have something healthy with.
That was the only moment I realized that I could change. Drop all my bad habits like I used to drop girls.
And for what? That this is a lie. I'm just a game. A hobby. A job. Just something to pass the time with till something better comes along.
"I do love you" "That was a while ago"
How do you know when someone is lying or not? Is love even real? Or is it something created by the media to make our lives a bit more entertaining.
My brain says Go. Don't look back. And my heart, this old broken shriveled worthless thing, is torn once more between staying and going.
I've stayed before in previous relationship only to end up in worse scenarios.
Will this be different if I stay? I thought she was different.
Fucking Karma.