I don't know the answers but neither do you

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I don't know. I don't care anymore. It feels like I'm not even alive anymore. I'm really fuckin sick of feeling like this. But I suppose I just have to deal cause nothing's changing right now. I'm not going to Blueprint tomorrow, which kinda sucks but I also kinda don't care. I mean, I wanted to see them, and I wanted to make Tess have fun, but I don't really feel like it anyway. I don't think I'd have fun. My baby.. I don't know what to say. He's just perfect. He got a second job today.. you know why? So he can put money in the bank. Know what the reason is? For us. I fuckin love him so much. It's like I love him more and more every day. I finally heard his band today. They're pretty good. And that's not me being biased either because when he first had me listen to a song, I thought it was just some band, and I liked it. They have shows next month.. which I can't go to. That blows. But they have a show on his birthday.. which I will go to, no matter what. I can't wait to get my court shit over with.. I just don't want to have to deal/worry about it anymore. Kill Bill vol. 2 wasn't as good. Oh well. Oh, I'm not going to Static-X anymore either. Conley's goin, so yea. Girls are bitches. So is that Nick kid.. I don't even fucking know him and already I don't like him. How the fuck is he gonna tell Conley I'm just gonna leave him? Dick. The Used is touring in October with Atreyu. Which there's no way in hell I'm missing. Then Atreyu goes on tour with FFAF and TBS, which I'm also not missing. Will be great. I'd like to watch some stand up right now, but there's none on. That Chris Rock special is on the OnDemand thing, but I don't have HBO so it won't let me watch it.
Why am I here?

I really hate my mind sometimes.