oh college...how i hate thee
so the placement test has been taken, but go figure i didn't place into calc just precalc which throws off the entire schedule, making it kind of impossible to graduate in about 5 years. fantastic. oh and to make matters worse the only chem labs open are ones that conflict with my "current" schedule. as if i should have expected anything better. there are no physics classes open which means i'm going to have to write another letter requesting a professor to open one up. lucky me. i'm beginning to seriously question this whole double major. i mean don't get me wrong i still totally want to be a forensic anthropologist but i don't know if i can pull all these classes. and that counts both ways. i don't know if i'll be able to make the grade and/or fit them in. if i have to pay for anything over 4 years i am going to be so in debt by the time i'm thirty i might as well have gone to med school. i don't know what to do anymore. i've gotten so comfortable with the idea of staying at least one extra semester that i can't comprehend not doing it. i even have the internship planned out. and for that i am going to need to have more school time so i can't graduate in four years. i think i have cornered myself into a big mess. maybe once i have money again i'll have julie retake the test and pray she places in to calc. that helps me somewhat, even if it doesn't figure out the chemistry problem (which by the way throws everything off too) no matter what angle i look at this i'm screwed. the plan worked out so perfectly that any variation of my major classes ruins everything. not taking the placement test last year was the first catylst. then fucking up physics has put me on a downward spiral. its amazing how each little thing can cause such a momumental problem. oh and btw i can't even register for chem at the moment because i have a hold on my account cause my tuition has yet to be paid. if only i didn't think i wanted this so badly; i wish i could just give it all up. i know i have only myself to blame but dammnit it would be nice if just for once things could work out for me. whatever i should be sleeping anyway, so i can get up and take massive amounts of fabulous pictures for my photography class that has cost me mucho money. somebody please just shoot me now.