i know you all hate it when i update so much. im really sorry... i just feel like crap.
i feel like crying.
all my friends have/are getting their own little loverpeoplethings.
i still dont have one.
so lisa goes and whines about it in her livejournal.
duh.
cuz i suck like that.
im listening to If Winter Ends. and hoping itll make me feel better.
"and i'll give myself 3 days to feel better, or else i swear im driving off a fucking cliff. cuz if i cant learn to make myself feel better, how can i expect anyone else to give a shit?"
this song. god bless conor oberst. i will marry him.
no i wont. im never getting married. if im such a great person like all my friends say then im assuming that guys hate great girls. theyd much rather date sluts or pretty girls or fashionable girls or popular girls. i guess. i dont really know. but if i were so amazingly awesome id have a boyfriend right now.
but i should shut up. there are a couple guys that like me. but nooo lisas a shallow fucking hypocrite and shes "just not attracted to them". fuck you lisa. really. i hate you. youre a godamn bitch. you deserve to go to hell and die.
and so i decide to like these guys that probably dont even think of me that way and if they ever found out i liked them theyd go "what? lisa who?" or theyd laugh cuz theyd think its a joke.
well haw haw.
im really a happy person lately. i havent been generally happy for weeks at a time since...i dont know... im not sure. i cant remember. but it looks like this is coming to an end.
someone please help me stop this. i dont want to be the way i was again. im so afraid itll be worse.
i wrote something like i said i would. and its not bad. its title is the same as my new lj screen name. and its sad. of course. i like it.
im okay. no im not.
all my friends have/are getting their own little loverpeoplethings.
i still dont have one.
so lisa goes and whines about it in her livejournal.
duh.
cuz i suck like that.
im listening to If Winter Ends. and hoping itll make me feel better.
"and i'll give myself 3 days to feel better, or else i swear im driving off a fucking cliff. cuz if i cant learn to make myself feel better, how can i expect anyone else to give a shit?"
this song. god bless conor oberst. i will marry him.
no i wont. im never getting married. if im such a great person like all my friends say then im assuming that guys hate great girls. theyd much rather date sluts or pretty girls or fashionable girls or popular girls. i guess. i dont really know. but if i were so amazingly awesome id have a boyfriend right now.
but i should shut up. there are a couple guys that like me. but nooo lisas a shallow fucking hypocrite and shes "just not attracted to them". fuck you lisa. really. i hate you. youre a godamn bitch. you deserve to go to hell and die.
and so i decide to like these guys that probably dont even think of me that way and if they ever found out i liked them theyd go "what? lisa who?" or theyd laugh cuz theyd think its a joke.
well haw haw.
im really a happy person lately. i havent been generally happy for weeks at a time since...i dont know... im not sure. i cant remember. but it looks like this is coming to an end.
someone please help me stop this. i dont want to be the way i was again. im so afraid itll be worse.
i wrote something like i said i would. and its not bad. its title is the same as my new lj screen name. and its sad. of course. i like it.
im okay. no im not.