"i like your shoes"
they wanted me in a smart people thing for smart people that dont do too well academically anyway cuz of whatever reason. but you have to drop an elective and change your schedule a bit. i like my electives and my schedules alright.
soooooyeahhhh.
fuck im so stupid.
i like in the song when he says "then hurt me" and holds out that note idk it makes me smile. "then hurt meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee"
im listening to big picture now.
today i beat people up with my book.
and felipe punched me in the arm and it really hurt and i think i have a bruise.
felipeyoustupidhead!
and i couldnt find christi after school.
i hate waiting for her anyway.
its so awkward i feel like such a loser.
at least i talked to zach for like two seconds. usually i just stand there and look dumb.
and even if i see like zach or julian talkign to their friends im not gonna go over ther cuz everyone else'll just look at me and be like "uhhhhhhhhhh who the hell are you?" and its not like i have anything to say anyway.
man i suck.
but the "you will you will you will you will you will? you will? you will" kicks in and the song gets all happy even tho he says "if you dont i'll start drinking like the way i drank before oh and i i just wont have a future anymore"
lisa smiles.
thisisanamazingalbum
edit: i decided i wasnt done...
i am a waste of breathspacepainttapetime.
and im too sensitive. and im constantly getting sick. somethings always wrong with me. i feel sick rightnow.
and what can i do right?
i cant do anything right. nothing.
i cant even talk to people right. it always comes out wrong. i say the wrong thing. i dont know what to say. i just dont know how to live at all. i suck at living.
the only thing i can ever do right is art and singing and music and writing and thinking.
i havent written anything in a while. poetry i mean. idk why.
im really sorry for the long post, to anyone who hasnt gotten bored and moved on yet.
i wouldnt blame you.
i dont write these things for people to read.
i write them to organize myself.
i dont even have to post it. but hey its my journal.
i do not read the reviews, no i am not singing for you
soooooyeahhhh.
fuck im so stupid.
i like in the song when he says "then hurt me" and holds out that note idk it makes me smile. "then hurt meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee"
im listening to big picture now.
today i beat people up with my book.
and felipe punched me in the arm and it really hurt and i think i have a bruise.
felipeyoustupidhead!
and i couldnt find christi after school.
i hate waiting for her anyway.
its so awkward i feel like such a loser.
at least i talked to zach for like two seconds. usually i just stand there and look dumb.
and even if i see like zach or julian talkign to their friends im not gonna go over ther cuz everyone else'll just look at me and be like "uhhhhhhhhhh who the hell are you?" and its not like i have anything to say anyway.
man i suck.
but the "you will you will you will you will you will? you will? you will" kicks in and the song gets all happy even tho he says "if you dont i'll start drinking like the way i drank before oh and i i just wont have a future anymore"
lisa smiles.
thisisanamazingalbum
edit: i decided i wasnt done...
i am a waste of breathspacepainttapetime.
and im too sensitive. and im constantly getting sick. somethings always wrong with me. i feel sick rightnow.
and what can i do right?
i cant do anything right. nothing.
i cant even talk to people right. it always comes out wrong. i say the wrong thing. i dont know what to say. i just dont know how to live at all. i suck at living.
the only thing i can ever do right is art and singing and music and writing and thinking.
i havent written anything in a while. poetry i mean. idk why.
im really sorry for the long post, to anyone who hasnt gotten bored and moved on yet.
i wouldnt blame you.
i dont write these things for people to read.
i write them to organize myself.
i dont even have to post it. but hey its my journal.
i do not read the reviews, no i am not singing for you