And I thought it went away, ha ha hah hahahahaha.

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I guess some fucking things don't just GO AWAY! And I really thought they had. Just because it feels like so long, but really it's only been about 6 months. Why does it feel so much longer? Last night I was afraid to go to sleep. I stayed up watching Degrassi, until I couldn't anymore. It was 3 in the morning when I was shaking in my bed, whimpering and crying and trying to make it stop. but it wouldn't stop. I'm glad my dad was at his fucking girlfriends, or he would have heard me. I can't concentrate on anything. I try to and it just won't happen, i wonder what work tonight is going to be like. maybe I will be better by then. but this really isn't cool...not cool at all. I had problems with the night when I was with my mom this summer, but it was different than this, and I would trade them with each other in a fucking heartbeat.

I'm not allowing comments because no offense guys, but none of you make me feel better with anything you say and I would rather just not read it.