The Holidays.....
This year it looks like I will be on my own. My dad is totally sick with a cold and he doesn't want me coming up becasue he said he knows that I can't afford to miss work. He said he is not going to go down to my sister's because she is due the 22nd of next month and she can't afford to get sick.
I am going to Oroville tonight to pick up some Christmas gifts that I had bought on one of my many shopping trips with my mom. He said he came across her stash and he knew I was tight on money and to come and pick them up. So I will go up there, pick up the stuff, and he will shove me out the door. I told him I would come up there for Christmas and he said he doesn't feel like doing Christmas cause it was my mom's favorite holiday. She shopped all year long to make sure she made it special for everyone around her.
She mostly enjoyed putting presents in the order she wanted them opened, always with the best for last. She wrapped everything because she enjoyed seeing people rip off the paper. She always put cards with things that she thought were especially special. Oh and she always tied boxes with ribbon. My mom would always say that it was going to be a small Christmas and when you walked out or when they came down here, there were many trips to the car to get everything.
But this year the lights are duller, the wrapping paper not cooperative, the spirit of giving is still there, but it is harder, knowing she is not here to share in the joy of the giving. I shop for my friends and I keep seeing things I would get for her, and I just go home not buying anything cause I don't want to break down in the store. I came across an outfit she gave me to give someone for their new baby, i cry. I see something that she put aside for someone she was thankful I had in my life, I cry.
I agree with my dad, this season is dull, and I can't get into it. *Shrugs* I just want to get through Sunday in one piece. I'm sorry this post is a downer. I truly wish everyone a Merry Christmas and enjoy your families during this season of love.
I am going to Oroville tonight to pick up some Christmas gifts that I had bought on one of my many shopping trips with my mom. He said he came across her stash and he knew I was tight on money and to come and pick them up. So I will go up there, pick up the stuff, and he will shove me out the door. I told him I would come up there for Christmas and he said he doesn't feel like doing Christmas cause it was my mom's favorite holiday. She shopped all year long to make sure she made it special for everyone around her.
She mostly enjoyed putting presents in the order she wanted them opened, always with the best for last. She wrapped everything because she enjoyed seeing people rip off the paper. She always put cards with things that she thought were especially special. Oh and she always tied boxes with ribbon. My mom would always say that it was going to be a small Christmas and when you walked out or when they came down here, there were many trips to the car to get everything.
But this year the lights are duller, the wrapping paper not cooperative, the spirit of giving is still there, but it is harder, knowing she is not here to share in the joy of the giving. I shop for my friends and I keep seeing things I would get for her, and I just go home not buying anything cause I don't want to break down in the store. I came across an outfit she gave me to give someone for their new baby, i cry. I see something that she put aside for someone she was thankful I had in my life, I cry.
I agree with my dad, this season is dull, and I can't get into it. *Shrugs* I just want to get through Sunday in one piece. I'm sorry this post is a downer. I truly wish everyone a Merry Christmas and enjoy your families during this season of love.