Concrit post~

[burningspiral]

I KNEW I FORGOT SOMETHING D:

If you have any issues with how I play Simon--any at all?  Please leave them here.

Screening and Anon are both on!

Look at how totally official I am~

Comments

I-I hope you're reading this, anon, because I totally understand where you're coming from ... 1/2 :|

[burningspiral]

These are perfectly understandable concerns, and I was actually waiting for one of these to find my concrit post. Actually, I really do want to thank you for using this rather than going "OMG THIS IS THE WORST SIMON EVAR 8||||" on RP!S like someone out there did (brb bitter :|). But everything you said is perfectly understandable. Even I'm really uncertain about a lot of the latest things he's done. Like, believe me, you have no idea how many OOC discussions I've had with castmates, both from Mayfield and other RPs, and people who know the series I had before I finally decided to do it. Really, this has been in the works for a month or so, now.

Mayfield has been pushing Simon since he first joined (and promptly died the next day :| Bad end, yes?), and it's just been getting worse and worse. Simon's already been completely torn apart by Nia's short perma-brainwash, not to mention back when he died, watching her get stabbed. And waking up two days later set a reaction off in his head. He's really had a throwback. Before this, Simon never lost. He never faced an enemy who, with some effort and spiral energy, couldn't be beaten. Mayfield is an entirely new game for Simon. And it's been something that's been hard for me to play: Simon losing. Because it's just... something he doesn't do. Pile this onto Kamina not being dead, knowing that if he goes home, he'll never see Kamina again, Nia's brainwash, Yoko's perma-brainwash, dying, seeing Nia get stabbed because of him, drinking human teeth and watching his friends starve for a week, Simon's not... really all there anymore. He's taken a few steps back, rather than forward. I've kind of seen Simon, off screen, spending a lot of sleepless nights because this stuff is traumatizing him. He sees it as his fault. And I think, in canon, this close to pre-skip, something like this would have crippled him. I really hope all that doesn't sound like I'm making excuses, because I'm not. I know it seems really OOC for him, and I'm pretty sure you're not the only one thinking that. I-I kinda hope you understand a little better, and that my reasoning doesn't sound totally off @_@ M-maybe I'm just failing knowing my character, but I think under the insane amount of strength, if it came down to it, at this point, Simon's still a little kid.