very well.,.
god, i think i over did it last night.,. i've felt like shit all day after that.,. i even vomitted in the back of cris' girlfriend's car.,. not much i could have done to prevent that, she's probly pissed about that.,. i'll let her hit me upside the head with something the next time i see her.,. so yeah, i haven't had anything to drink today.,. i'm still buzzing a bit from last night.,. i think that's like 3 out of the last 4 weekends that i've puked.,. that's fun, i'm not embarrassed to say that i'm a beer drinking food & bile vomitting machine.,. i've worked damn hard to become so.,. so other than drinking & bodily functions, i've been going insane out here by myself.,. this place can be scary cause sometimes you hear & see stuff.,. then you go to look & there's nothing there.,. like hearing someone's voice in the next room but you find nothing when you look.,. then the footsteps in the hallway.,. christ, i'm 21 & it may seem that i'm still afraid of the dark out here.,. i mean, each time i walk into the garage at night, i'm waiting for some zombie to come after me when i lean down to grab a soda or a water.,. or some serial killer to sneak in when i'm taking a shower then wait for me to open the door only to have him plunge a butcher knife into my stomach multiple times.,. or when i'm walking out to feed the horses, thinking that some pack of rabid dogs is going to maul me as i endure the closing moments of my life while the are ripping my face off.,. so with lots of blood, flesh & screaming not being heard, i die a horrible death from Fido & his buddies.,. maybe i should of had a twin so i wouldn't be bored & always in a constant state of shear panic.,. i'm gonna wind up with a heart attack by the age of 30, stress induced i might add.,. & my dreams don't help at all.,. i dunno, maybe i need a hug or a giant teddy bear.,. but not the teddy bear with huge fucking fangs & longs sharp nails waiting to chop my head off in my sleep.,. i'm not safe in the counscious or subconscious world.,. damn you imagination.,. i need my own terminator or a bad ass laser gun.,. i'm probly get drunk & do some serious damage around here with the laser gun.,. i dunno, but it would be fun to shoot the neighbor's horses.,. god i hate that guy.,.