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I look back at my old journal entries and laugh to myself, yet all the while I feel slightly disappointed.I spent so much time ranting about how miserable I was, how unhappy I was with myself, and how I needed a change in order to better myself. It took me nearly a year and a half to realize that a change wasn't what I needed. What I needed more than anything else was simply to figure out who I am, and the person I want to be.
It took a family crisis for me to finally realize that I am not taking advantage of the life i've been given. It took a crisis for me to realize that I didn't have it as bad as I thought and that theres more to life than highschool drama that i tend to deal with.
Coming home from work last night, I thought to myself "I've never felt this happy.", and its true. I've never felt more elated in my life. I finally realized that I don't need a certain person to make me happy, and that his friendship means way more to me at this point. I realized that I have a great family. Like every other family, we have our problems, but they mean more to me than anything else. Lastly I realized that I'm living a life that some people long for. I have great friends, a decent job, caring siblings, and so much more.
Finally, I really am letting go of my downer thoughts.
At this point in my life, I couldn't be happier, and the future excites me. I'm looking forward to the things that have yet to come.
It took a family crisis for me to finally realize that I am not taking advantage of the life i've been given. It took a crisis for me to realize that I didn't have it as bad as I thought and that theres more to life than highschool drama that i tend to deal with.
Coming home from work last night, I thought to myself "I've never felt this happy.", and its true. I've never felt more elated in my life. I finally realized that I don't need a certain person to make me happy, and that his friendship means way more to me at this point. I realized that I have a great family. Like every other family, we have our problems, but they mean more to me than anything else. Lastly I realized that I'm living a life that some people long for. I have great friends, a decent job, caring siblings, and so much more.
Finally, I really am letting go of my downer thoughts.
At this point in my life, I couldn't be happier, and the future excites me. I'm looking forward to the things that have yet to come.