girls
alright i'm done this time. forget girls forever. can someone (preferably a girl) please tell me how girls are able to turn their feelings for someone off in a split second decision? feelings that seem to be soooo strong that the girl is ready to marry the guy that she's with? this is the second time this shit has happened to me. i contribute it entirely to me being in the navy or me being totally inadequate in relationships or the fact that all girls are chemically imbalanced. i don't know which. maybe it's a combination of all three. i've always thought that i'm a great guy, but i guess i'm wrong. i think there is something dreadfully wrong with our culture and the way people have been raised when they aren't willing to wait for people that they supposedly love. i guess i'm too old fashioned. when i feel that i'm in love with a girl, i'm willing to go through anything and everything to be with that person because that's what you're supposed to do when you're in love with someone. apparently girls nowadays don't have the same perception of love. i just fucking hate this. i fucking hate giving my heart to a girl (literally) and then that girl just breaks up with me for no fuckding reason. ok cancel that, she gave me the reasons that things are really fucked up right now and that she needs time alone. i don't fucking know what the hell happened. maybe i fucked everything away, i don't fucking know. i can't fucking care anymore. why? because it's just going to tear me up inside. i have another 5 months and 15 days before i can do anything about it. so next port i'm going to get drunk out of my fucking mind and hopefully forget just for one night that i'm in the navy and that there is a girl halfway around the world with my heart on her keychain.