i'm not really as depressed as i sound
Ive been out of work for too long now, i dont think i can go back. Sadly everything that i had gained seems to have melted away, all except the measly ammount of cash i made. Ive stopped keeping track of everything, i used to keep track of every cent, every event. But now that ive realised the true value of money i just can't be stuffed. I think i might need some time to heal.
But as always time off just makes me lethargic. lethargy leads to stagnation. stagnation is the sickly pool that we drink deep from when rotting in our graves. Iv'e almost done enough research on zombie movies to keep me saited. iv'e seen how theyve evolved and i think i might have actually cracked the code. I know what is needed for the next step in zombie evolution... that's right, a plotline.
i think it might be time to move on.
in less than 2 weeks time i will be enrolling in canning college, doing yr 12 and TEE. everyone always asks why i want to go back to highschool instead of just doing my STAT and going straight to uni. i always give the answer that its a psychological block that i just cant seem to get over. that never satisfies anyone, so i explain further that it'll give me a year to get back into the swing of studying and another year of sorting out just what it is that i want to do. Of course that's just justification that i came up with to satisfy the questioner. I wish people could just accept.
My motivation always starts out simply and purely. my answers don't satisfy you? i can make up lies, reasons that co-incide with any other rational human being, i'm intelligent enough to do that. just make up your own reasons alright?
nudity and honesty, the two most boring things on the planet.
i'm writing this on a brand new iMac g5. Yeah! unfortunatley its my parents, but that's OK as the computer pecking order gets nocked down a place and i get their old computer. ive already wasted all day playing quake 3 arena instead of making chelsea's present.
i might buy one of my own as it has a reasonable price tag of $1400.
i also want a digital camera, anyone have any advice? looking to spend about $500 on one. (so SLR out of the question)
i'm quite happy really, just got to get my ass into gear
the future is now, and that excites me