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Oh, hey, right. I have a blog.
How long has it been since I last wrote here? Like, actually wrote and posted. I have several draft entries about various (US-centric) political events that I started but failed to finish since I didn't have enough time to research them the way I wanted before they became irrelevant.
Dreamwidth tells me I last posted in... April! That's actually more recent than I expected. *facepalm*
So, what's the news?
I have not been writing. Didn't get anything prepped or finished or submitted to Lightspeed. Not too pleased about that. I feel like I've lost my writing mojo and don't know how to get it back--I look back at things I've written, and I dig them, but what little I do produce is terrible, because I'm so out of practice. And I don't really have spoons for writing these days, or the right kind of headspace, sad as that is.
My old car did indeed go to the Great Highway In The Sky. One of the columns was bent in the accident, and it deformed the frame. I drive a Prius now. I don't love it as much as I loved the Mazda (mostly because it's not bright blue), but it's a pretty cool spaceship car nonetheless. I rack up pretty serious mileage these days, but I still only have to fill up once every 8 days or so, and it usually runs under 20 bucks.
I got hired on as a salaried employee at the place that gave me the apprenticeship. That's good, in terms of making enough money to live like an independent(ish) adult. Unfortunately, it's also super-stressful. I don't really know how to be a salaried employee. This whole thing of not keeping track, really, of hours worked per week, is just too strange. It's too easy to constantly feel like a slacker.
Things with the boyfriend are also stressful. He's depressed, he has chronic pain, his disability claim and appeals (for the chronic pain and depression) have been denied, and he's in a very bad place a lot of the time. For someone with my propensity for making themselves responsible for other people's happiness, it's... problematic. And it wears on my own mental health. We're hanging in there, but I try not to look too far ahead right now. I can't really picture spending my whole life with someone in the state he's in at the moment--it's just too exhausting to imagine. So it's one day at a time, and hoping he does get better.
All super cheerful, right? Maybe I forgot to mention that it's been cloudy and raining here in beautiful North Carolina for something coming up on two weeks now. I moved back down from the mountains because I couldn't deal with the constant darkness and clouds you get up there in the winter. I want a refund or something.
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How long has it been since I last wrote here? Like, actually wrote and posted. I have several draft entries about various (US-centric) political events that I started but failed to finish since I didn't have enough time to research them the way I wanted before they became irrelevant.
Dreamwidth tells me I last posted in... April! That's actually more recent than I expected. *facepalm*
So, what's the news?
I have not been writing. Didn't get anything prepped or finished or submitted to Lightspeed. Not too pleased about that. I feel like I've lost my writing mojo and don't know how to get it back--I look back at things I've written, and I dig them, but what little I do produce is terrible, because I'm so out of practice. And I don't really have spoons for writing these days, or the right kind of headspace, sad as that is.
My old car did indeed go to the Great Highway In The Sky. One of the columns was bent in the accident, and it deformed the frame. I drive a Prius now. I don't love it as much as I loved the Mazda (mostly because it's not bright blue), but it's a pretty cool spaceship car nonetheless. I rack up pretty serious mileage these days, but I still only have to fill up once every 8 days or so, and it usually runs under 20 bucks.
I got hired on as a salaried employee at the place that gave me the apprenticeship. That's good, in terms of making enough money to live like an independent(ish) adult. Unfortunately, it's also super-stressful. I don't really know how to be a salaried employee. This whole thing of not keeping track, really, of hours worked per week, is just too strange. It's too easy to constantly feel like a slacker.
Things with the boyfriend are also stressful. He's depressed, he has chronic pain, his disability claim and appeals (for the chronic pain and depression) have been denied, and he's in a very bad place a lot of the time. For someone with my propensity for making themselves responsible for other people's happiness, it's... problematic. And it wears on my own mental health. We're hanging in there, but I try not to look too far ahead right now. I can't really picture spending my whole life with someone in the state he's in at the moment--it's just too exhausting to imagine. So it's one day at a time, and hoping he does get better.
All super cheerful, right? Maybe I forgot to mention that it's been cloudy and raining here in beautiful North Carolina for something coming up on two weeks now. I moved back down from the mountains because I couldn't deal with the constant darkness and clouds you get up there in the winter. I want a refund or something.
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comments on this entry at http://all-strange-wonders.dreamwidth.org/740864.html#comments.