love and peace
so, i've had this song stuck in my head for the past 20 hours. i could swear that it is an old appleseed cast song.....but i can't remember which one. all i have is the climax of the song playing over and over in my head on loop. i'll just listen to some old further seems forever instead.
there are no easy answers or solutions in life. if life was a math problem it would be a trigonometry or calculous 3 problem....one that takes up the whole blackboard. except, unlike those problems, life is a trick question with no definate answer. and if you mess up in your calculations, you can't go back and erase your mistakes. but that doesn't mean you can't go forward and make everything right. which brings me to a point. grab a seat, this may get longwinded, boys.
so, i check my lj yesterday afternoon while taking a break from bike repair (it's hot outside, and imma enjoy the fucking ac). so, i skim down and notice that i have a new comment to my hallow's eve post! kick ass, maybe someone has an idea for a costume better than cobra commander. amanda says only one word "vash." i think to myself, "i can't pull that off, i don't have blonde hair." i go back to the main page, and i glance over my last entry. then it grabs me hard....that word "vash."
i re-read the entry again, with tears in my eyes. i looked at the entry differently from reading just that one word.....like it was just whispered over and over again in my brain. it's like something in my brain just snapped back into place. how in just a few short days was i able to even consider the thought of throwing away everything i had become? how could i close my eyes to something i believe in so much? how could i pretend that i don't care about anyone or anything? did she read that entry from that night and make the suggestion as a symbolic way to tell me to get my head outta my fucking ass? or did she just think it'd make a good costume because i remind her of the humanoid typhoon and we always thought it'd be a kick ass costume?
amanda and brian are the only 2 people who actually understand the importance of "vash the stampede, the humanoid typhoon" and the overall message of the "trigun" series. i dunno why, but i've never had fictional characters impact me the way that this series did. i really connected with that spikey haired yutz. the overall message can be sumemd up with vash's words: "people have many different ways of thinking. even if a mistake is made as long as the person realizes their mistake it's possible to make it right again, and if you keep your vision clear you will see the future." that four letter word. hope.
there are no easy answers or solutions in life. if life was a math problem it would be a trigonometry or calculous 3 problem....one that takes up the whole blackboard. except, unlike those problems, life is a trick question with no definate answer. and if you mess up in your calculations, you can't go back and erase your mistakes. but that doesn't mean you can't go forward and make everything right. which brings me to a point. grab a seat, this may get longwinded, boys.
so, i check my lj yesterday afternoon while taking a break from bike repair (it's hot outside, and imma enjoy the fucking ac). so, i skim down and notice that i have a new comment to my hallow's eve post! kick ass, maybe someone has an idea for a costume better than cobra commander. amanda says only one word "vash." i think to myself, "i can't pull that off, i don't have blonde hair." i go back to the main page, and i glance over my last entry. then it grabs me hard....that word "vash."
i re-read the entry again, with tears in my eyes. i looked at the entry differently from reading just that one word.....like it was just whispered over and over again in my brain. it's like something in my brain just snapped back into place. how in just a few short days was i able to even consider the thought of throwing away everything i had become? how could i close my eyes to something i believe in so much? how could i pretend that i don't care about anyone or anything? did she read that entry from that night and make the suggestion as a symbolic way to tell me to get my head outta my fucking ass? or did she just think it'd make a good costume because i remind her of the humanoid typhoon and we always thought it'd be a kick ass costume?
amanda and brian are the only 2 people who actually understand the importance of "vash the stampede, the humanoid typhoon" and the overall message of the "trigun" series. i dunno why, but i've never had fictional characters impact me the way that this series did. i really connected with that spikey haired yutz. the overall message can be sumemd up with vash's words: "people have many different ways of thinking. even if a mistake is made as long as the person realizes their mistake it's possible to make it right again, and if you keep your vision clear you will see the future." that four letter word. hope.