ex-boyfriends suck (and now he's a jerk)

[burning_tiger]

I've just decided that ex-boyfriends are some of the worst things out there. I've been trying to get along with my ex-boyfriend Paul but it's really rough. He was the first boyfriend I've ever had. I thought that he really cared about me but that was wrong. He never talks to me unless I talk to him first, and he won't even hug me anymore. And everytime I try to hug him goodbye or hello he pushes me away. Or sometimes he even jabs me with a pen or punches me in the chest or stomach (I should say that he never really hurts me or has even been abusive to me, but sometimes it does hurt when he jabs not to mention that it really hurts my feelings) Every time he pushes me away I feel like I'm going to cry. Today I was playing a video with him and just started poking his leg with my foot. I was just playing with him, I wasn't trying to be annoying. Then he grabbed my leg and through it off the couch. He grabbed my leg pretty hard too. Then I got angry and poked him again and he punched me in the chest. I don't think he was intentinally trying to hurt me but it hurt my feelings more than anything. Then I told him that he had hurt me he didn't believe me. Then he acted like he was going to hit me with the contoller. And I really thought that he was going to hit me but he didn't.

Then I strated to feel bad that maybe I had done something wrong so I said I was sorry and asked if I had upset him. He didn't even look at me then he shrugged and walked off. He's only started to do this after we broke up and I don't know what his problem is. I should say that he's not abusive (at least I don't think he is) but he's been acting like an asshole and I don't know why. I think maybe it's my fault. Does anyone out there have any advice?