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how meaningful are birthdays anywayz? I'm turning 18 in exactly one week, and it's nothing really to get excited about..at least not when I have 7 mid-terms to worry about...and one a day after my b-day ....guess what I'll be doing on my birthday? STUDYING..yay! *rolls eyes* and it's pretty much like this every year, stupid exams around the same time....so what is there to celebrate? the fact that I'm going to failllll miserably and never get what I want? JOY.....yes being a little tad pessimistic lately, but what the hell....actually I think I'll stop being so sarcastic, seeing as sarcasm can get really annoying after a while, especially when people keep writing it in their livejournals, which I am doing @ the current moment....ack, my brain is so messed up that I can't even think properly..but just thinking, what is so great about the 1-8? more heavier responsibilities as an ooooo "adult"....freedom? pff.. got tonz of freedom rite now...what's the whole deal w/ people HAVING to go away for university? I find that stupid...I mean, yes go ahead and say "just because I don't like my family, I am going to go and waste tonz and tonz of money in residence" isn't that very intelligent? I can understand if some really good program is there and ppl need to go, but just for escaping from your family? pff..sorry people, but you're kinda tied to your family for the rest of your life? yea...I really don't want to get away from Toronto, considering that being all independent isn't all as cracked up as most people think, unless you get all the luxury, otherwise, you have to do all the stuff by yourself, and I would actually miss my family...like what the hell..I'm only 18 and having to fend the world already? But yeah, I guess it all depends on what's the best road to take that'll determine where I go next year..*groans* sometimes university and everything is so overrated, I mean it's hilarious how some carpenters make 4 times as much as a person w/ a Bachelor's degree in something like philosophy.....life ain't fair, but oh well. I am so sick of the hell hole, kinda want to leave damn high school forever, but then how much better is university gonna be? just more work and stress..and that goes on for another 4 years, and then grad skoo is another couple of years, yay life just looks so bright so far...sure you get the summers off 'n stuff, but the in-between time is kinda hard to cope through..I know I'll eventually do it, but the process isn't something that's so bright.