Gotta get this off my chest
Its 3:30am, and I can't sleep. My boss wants me to come in 2 hours early (at 10) tomorrow, which is fine, but that means that if I wanted to exercise I would have to get up at 6 and get started right away. I've never been able to do that and probably never will. So the logical answer would just be to do it after work, normally that would be what I would do but I want to go to the bike co-op afterward- and being Wedensday is the only day they are open I don't much have a choice. Plus, I promised my sister I would give her and her friends a ride to some concert thing; because apperently I am the only person she knows in Cincy. So I have to drive up to moms, drive them to the venue, wait until it is over, drive back to where ever they are staying, get my car back, drive home. That also means I will miss the show tomorrow.
What is this? Im sorry but i'm starting to get really frustrated. I constantly feel like I am being forced out of the things that I, Will, what to do because I actually WANT to. I WANT to go to the gym but, nope, doesn't look like that will happen. I WANT to go to the co-op and will really have to haul ass to do so. I WANT to sit at home and have a free evening but I just cant. I feel like I am being pulled in a million different directions leaving me no "me" time.
I dunno, maybe when you are constantly going out of your way to help people they start to expect it. Thats fine too but....damn, not all at the same time! Pick up the slack at my job because my co-worker can't not drink and stay out all night. Play DD for my sister and her friends because they can't do the same thing (Quite a few times she has called me at like, 3 in the morning on a Saturday asking me to give her a ride home because she can't drive. Not only am I not quite in the state to drive but she's all the way out in Hamilton! Nobody lives closer?). And I know i'm going to get flak for not going to the show that I have no interest in going to. I don't even listen to Mischief Brew! I'm sorry that I will miss ONE show out of the dozens that have been set up this year. I don't want to go, I have other things that I want to do, sorry.
And why am I even apolgizing? Like I said, I am just getting really fucking frustrated with the way people are acting lately. Am I the only person who helps other people now?! I don't mind helping people but lately I feel like I am solely responsible for making sure things don't suck. And it's the little things that are adding up.
I dunno, I think i'm just pissed off because I won't be able to work out tomorrow. Maybe i'm just angry because the planets aligned and everything crappy is going to happen tomorrow. Hell, thats probably the reason. If I could just get out of these wierd hours at work it would be fine
What is this? Im sorry but i'm starting to get really frustrated. I constantly feel like I am being forced out of the things that I, Will, what to do because I actually WANT to. I WANT to go to the gym but, nope, doesn't look like that will happen. I WANT to go to the co-op and will really have to haul ass to do so. I WANT to sit at home and have a free evening but I just cant. I feel like I am being pulled in a million different directions leaving me no "me" time.
I dunno, maybe when you are constantly going out of your way to help people they start to expect it. Thats fine too but....damn, not all at the same time! Pick up the slack at my job because my co-worker can't not drink and stay out all night. Play DD for my sister and her friends because they can't do the same thing (Quite a few times she has called me at like, 3 in the morning on a Saturday asking me to give her a ride home because she can't drive. Not only am I not quite in the state to drive but she's all the way out in Hamilton! Nobody lives closer?). And I know i'm going to get flak for not going to the show that I have no interest in going to. I don't even listen to Mischief Brew! I'm sorry that I will miss ONE show out of the dozens that have been set up this year. I don't want to go, I have other things that I want to do, sorry.
And why am I even apolgizing? Like I said, I am just getting really fucking frustrated with the way people are acting lately. Am I the only person who helps other people now?! I don't mind helping people but lately I feel like I am solely responsible for making sure things don't suck. And it's the little things that are adding up.
I dunno, I think i'm just pissed off because I won't be able to work out tomorrow. Maybe i'm just angry because the planets aligned and everything crappy is going to happen tomorrow. Hell, thats probably the reason. If I could just get out of these wierd hours at work it would be fine