Plans
It's so odd the way things progress. One thing leads into another. Of course I'm aware that's the way things go. There are simply some events that strike me as truly unusual. Such as the direction life goes.
The overall goal in mind for me is to get my life straightened out and make it truly my own life. Take control. Be myself.
The basic steps of which were simply:
Get a job. (Done)
Save up. (Done/Doing)
Move out.
Learn how to take care of myself.
Undergo therapy.
Enjoy life.
Eventually go back to school and finish college.
That changed. I grew overly concerned with my mom. Worrying about her. Wanting to...change her, something. In short, I tried to control her. I had no right to. It only dragged me further down the path I was trying to leave behind. I'm so stupid and childish, even now.
The basic steps are still there. I'm falling back on them. I had changed them to include my mother. Mistake one. So, to remind myself, this post is going up. And it's possible that college might have wound up bumped up a few steps after all. I'm looking into it very carefully. Unlike before, I'm not just going to grab hold of some opportunity simply because it comes up. This time, I think before I leap.
The overall goal in mind for me is to get my life straightened out and make it truly my own life. Take control. Be myself.
The basic steps of which were simply:
Get a job. (Done)
Save up. (Done/Doing)
Move out.
Learn how to take care of myself.
Undergo therapy.
Enjoy life.
Eventually go back to school and finish college.
That changed. I grew overly concerned with my mom. Worrying about her. Wanting to...change her, something. In short, I tried to control her. I had no right to. It only dragged me further down the path I was trying to leave behind. I'm so stupid and childish, even now.
The basic steps are still there. I'm falling back on them. I had changed them to include my mother. Mistake one. So, to remind myself, this post is going up. And it's possible that college might have wound up bumped up a few steps after all. I'm looking into it very carefully. Unlike before, I'm not just going to grab hold of some opportunity simply because it comes up. This time, I think before I leap.