long ago you might have lit up my heart by the fire's dead and never ever gunna start

[burnednlavender]

I have never wanted anything this bad in my whole life
and it's scary because I feel like I don't stand a chance
it's been there all along and I knew it
but I ignored it
and now it has crept up on me and hit me so hard
and now i cant get my mind of it.

It's going to be nice to leave for awhile
but it's also going to be hard to be away.

im so confused
and yet I'm not.

so obviously i am