this is what hate is made out of
lately i have been feeling sick. i don't now.. i just don't know what to do with myself.
i started my medication... it makes me feel like shit. at least i get sleepy.
i get so tempted to just swallow the whole bottle of pills and top it off with some
vodka or whiskey or something. that would be nice. i would probably die.. or coma or something. naw i wouldn't do it. i wouldn't go through with the action.. just a random
thought. i mean.. i am such a pussy. i wouldn't. i don't know. i am so confused busy stressed and shit lately. i want to trust someone. i have realized like i always do that there isn't any one for me to trust. you know that is fucked up, but really do we ever have anyone to trust? i mean other might feel pity for you like; "dude that sucks i am here for you." they don't mean it. just words of comfort cause they don't know what else to say you know? fuck it. fuck it all.
i think i am just going to do what i am best at doing.. being to myself. i was an intrevert. i was like that then i said hey fuck this i want to like.. meet new people so i did. some of the ones i meet weren't very nice. but whatever. life isn't nice.
YOU FUCKEN HEAR THAT LIFE ISN'T NICE!!!!!!
i started my medication... it makes me feel like shit. at least i get sleepy.
i get so tempted to just swallow the whole bottle of pills and top it off with some
vodka or whiskey or something. that would be nice. i would probably die.. or coma or something. naw i wouldn't do it. i wouldn't go through with the action.. just a random
thought. i mean.. i am such a pussy. i wouldn't. i don't know. i am so confused busy stressed and shit lately. i want to trust someone. i have realized like i always do that there isn't any one for me to trust. you know that is fucked up, but really do we ever have anyone to trust? i mean other might feel pity for you like; "dude that sucks i am here for you." they don't mean it. just words of comfort cause they don't know what else to say you know? fuck it. fuck it all.
i think i am just going to do what i am best at doing.. being to myself. i was an intrevert. i was like that then i said hey fuck this i want to like.. meet new people so i did. some of the ones i meet weren't very nice. but whatever. life isn't nice.
YOU FUCKEN HEAR THAT LIFE ISN'T NICE!!!!!!