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i cant turn my emotions on and off. i have no idea how you do it so easily. i want this to be easy. i really really do.
so yay for another night of doing nothing but walking around royal oak with myself. and it all comes back to the honesty issue. everytime i put my faith in something it falls through. big or small. it doesnt matter. from hanging out with friends to a life changing event. thats the reason im need to go to camp. not to be away from the people around here or the everyday grey mass that hangs over my head....but to be somewhere where i am dependant on someone and they have the same dependancy on me. where they dont HAVE to be dependant, but where they choose to be, because they care enough. only one more month and then ill be free. ill be conquering the world while you're forgeting about me. and thats totally ok with me.
hey anyone wanna smoke some pot?...oh wait dont do that anymore do i? so yeah dont call me i guess any longer....cause i wont throw down on a bag.
i feel like im so sane that im too sane. does that make sense? like everyone else is fucking nuts. and since they are the ones that make up the general population, i am the one who is feeling insane.
outlet.
i need to find an outlet. something to do that will occupy my mind and and energy.
so ill say it....i cant stand the way that people treat other people in this town. i love many of them. but when it comes to trust and loyal friendships...many fall through the cracks.
"I wish that you would die tonight. Memories I wish long gone just drowned in the black tube. You have no right to be breathing. Wow, this is sort of overwhelming me. Oh, who will keep her gorgeous and tell her she's blushing. The broad in the locker has been consumed. I inherit nothing more than a smile. A heartfelt memory in black and white screen shots she dies."
so yay for another night of doing nothing but walking around royal oak with myself. and it all comes back to the honesty issue. everytime i put my faith in something it falls through. big or small. it doesnt matter. from hanging out with friends to a life changing event. thats the reason im need to go to camp. not to be away from the people around here or the everyday grey mass that hangs over my head....but to be somewhere where i am dependant on someone and they have the same dependancy on me. where they dont HAVE to be dependant, but where they choose to be, because they care enough. only one more month and then ill be free. ill be conquering the world while you're forgeting about me. and thats totally ok with me.
hey anyone wanna smoke some pot?...oh wait dont do that anymore do i? so yeah dont call me i guess any longer....cause i wont throw down on a bag.
i feel like im so sane that im too sane. does that make sense? like everyone else is fucking nuts. and since they are the ones that make up the general population, i am the one who is feeling insane.
outlet.
i need to find an outlet. something to do that will occupy my mind and and energy.
so ill say it....i cant stand the way that people treat other people in this town. i love many of them. but when it comes to trust and loyal friendships...many fall through the cracks.
"I wish that you would die tonight. Memories I wish long gone just drowned in the black tube. You have no right to be breathing. Wow, this is sort of overwhelming me. Oh, who will keep her gorgeous and tell her she's blushing. The broad in the locker has been consumed. I inherit nothing more than a smile. A heartfelt memory in black and white screen shots she dies."