mother mother.
im going to write this giving myself the liberty to actually believe it, and let it be mine for a minute.
im fluctuating, and trying to remember my hormones are crazy right now, this is a period in my life when nothing will ever be like it again. i feel like i relived so many moments in my life already, the same old parties, the same old citys, the same old shitty friends.... winters blend together as mostly just a cold grey time. i have always fluctuated, feeling like shit at certain points in my life and feeling amazing at others.
i had a moment the other day, where i thought "what the fuck have i gotten myself into" ill say i have had this moment 3 times in the past year.
on my wedding day.
when i went into labor.
and when i hadnt slept for 2 weeks and the baby wouldnt stop crying.
and then i think everything is different, but everything is always different, nothin is the same... the same as when? this time last year? when i was 17? when i was 7?
but everything is good, and im a mom, and its different and alot harder than i thoguht it was gonna be ...
but its life, and its amazing...
and nothing will ever be like this ever again...
im fluctuating, and trying to remember my hormones are crazy right now, this is a period in my life when nothing will ever be like it again. i feel like i relived so many moments in my life already, the same old parties, the same old citys, the same old shitty friends.... winters blend together as mostly just a cold grey time. i have always fluctuated, feeling like shit at certain points in my life and feeling amazing at others.
i had a moment the other day, where i thought "what the fuck have i gotten myself into" ill say i have had this moment 3 times in the past year.
on my wedding day.
when i went into labor.
and when i hadnt slept for 2 weeks and the baby wouldnt stop crying.
and then i think everything is different, but everything is always different, nothin is the same... the same as when? this time last year? when i was 17? when i was 7?
but everything is good, and im a mom, and its different and alot harder than i thoguht it was gonna be ...
but its life, and its amazing...
and nothing will ever be like this ever again...