....35 weeks.
i cant sleep.
about a month left, the house is on its last leg... thom has been working his ass off trying to get it finished.
i cant wait to not be pregnant.. mostly because i just want to meet the baby already.
vermont is beautiful, its fall, the mountains and trees are changing, smoke, thom and i took a walk to the farmers market today, and it made me really happy to live here. we dug out part of the river to make a wading pool, and i already started the gardens for next year.
im stressed about money, and dealing with things changing.
i knew that this would change my life, but its a striking to realization to realize the friends you have invested your heart and time in for years dont care enough to be supportive.
mom friends tell me everyone realizes that... and you make new friends, so now its just learning how to let go and not be angry. i always had this vision of pregnancy and raising kids and my good friends being involved and a part of my life and my childs, and i guess thats why its hard to raise a child in a community.. because no one wants to take the time to be a community.
thom and i want to build an ice skating rink this winter in the back yard... but its a hill. well i guess more i want the ice skating rink.
about a month left, the house is on its last leg... thom has been working his ass off trying to get it finished.
i cant wait to not be pregnant.. mostly because i just want to meet the baby already.
vermont is beautiful, its fall, the mountains and trees are changing, smoke, thom and i took a walk to the farmers market today, and it made me really happy to live here. we dug out part of the river to make a wading pool, and i already started the gardens for next year.
im stressed about money, and dealing with things changing.
i knew that this would change my life, but its a striking to realization to realize the friends you have invested your heart and time in for years dont care enough to be supportive.
mom friends tell me everyone realizes that... and you make new friends, so now its just learning how to let go and not be angry. i always had this vision of pregnancy and raising kids and my good friends being involved and a part of my life and my childs, and i guess thats why its hard to raise a child in a community.. because no one wants to take the time to be a community.
thom and i want to build an ice skating rink this winter in the back yard... but its a hill. well i guess more i want the ice skating rink.