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well i havent updated in a while.. been busy i guess, or just lazy - or both. started my new job.. at uncle giupseppe's "sweatshop".. lmao its been pretty fun actually -- longggg tiring days, but still fun overall i guess. i work with kayla, cath , tierney, jenny, chelsea, and other girls that i know from school -- so its chill. we're pretty much the oldest .. most of the girls are a year younger. most of the managers are fucking assholes who think they can make us their bitches while paying us $6.50 an hour. good joke! i got hired to do cashier, so thats what im gunna do lol. yeahh so thats what ive been up to.. then coming home and going to sleep since im not quite used to child labor yet haha jk.
wowww... so much has happened /changed since i last updated .. some good, some bad .. mostly bad unfortunately, but im not about to get into it in detail right now bc i'll just get depressed. in general, i think we -- or at least i -- realized how much we've changed over the past year(s), andd i've pretty much come to the point where i don't even know who i am sometimes, and it really scares me. now that we've all gotten into "summer mode," i kind of stopped caring about the important things, and have been focusing on the "fun" things. or maybe its not that i stopped caring, i just dont think twice about a lot of things. a lot of the time.. i live in the moment, not thinking or caring about what the consequences will be.. which is okay sometimes, but not all the time. most of us also learned what alcohol can do to you.. and what a mess that was.(but..even though i learned, i wont stop lol) sooo, after the most eventful/random night of my life..and probably everyone elses who was there( kims party ), there were so many fucked up results/consequences that came out of it, i sometimes question whether it was all even worth it or not. ( but as much as we realized.. we all know that we're NOT gunna stop partying haha ) don't get me wrong, i dont regret ANYTHING that happened that night, because i do believe that everything happens for a reason, but maybeee some of us (including myself obviously) should've put better thought into our actions before we went ahead and did them? haha but whatever.. its chill i guess.. shit happens. from now on, i'm going to thinkk a bout my actions, and make the best and most responsible decisions possible. things are still pretty messed up though. things werent so great with one of my best girl friends ( thats putting it mildly ).. but we talked it out, and we're cool now thank goddddd bc i love herrr so much <33 im also in a fight with my 2 "best guy friends".. not fun. one of those fights isnt really a fight.. he's just mad at me - and he has every right to be.. bc like i said, i didnt think about my actions before i did them! but on the other hand, he lied anddd i dont like liars. andd the other one..wellll..its a complete disaster at the moment, and pretty much all ive been thinking about for the past week, but hopefully it'll all work out soon enough.. or i wont be a very happy camper lol.
on a more positive note, i think i'm becoming closer with my family, especially my mom. recently, i told her something reallyyyy big that i umm... did? lol.. not an easy thing to tell your mom, but i did - and i think she's really happy that i told her, and didn't hide it like i hide a lot of other things. my brother and i have been getting along, and being more on the same side when it comes to getting in trouble / doing things we shouldn't be doing lol. my moms boyfriend..i don't hold much of a grudge against him anymore, i've started to give him a chance and we actually carry on normal conversations.. he's actually pretty cool lol.
yeahhh.. i don't really know where i'm going with this.. justt getting out my thoughts - since thats what a livejournal is for... and if you're sitting here reading this - sorry for not making sense .. or making a point..but it was your choice to read thisss ;) lol
hmm i think i'm going to make a list of summer goals..nothing major/that great.. just stupid little things.. lmao welll one of them has already been acheived ;) so i won't put it down lmao.. hahaaa kim i fucking love us <333 no specific order, just what i thought of first.
- keep my job for the summer, even if i end up hating it.. unless i find another one right away.
- get my goddamn license, since i've been 17 for like 6 months and i still don't have it bc I SUCK
- read books.. yeah that's right - BOOKS. i used to be smart.. till i stopped caring, so now is a good time to START caring again.
- reunite with my portuguese hombre lmfao.. mannyyy<3
- go to a psychic
- get an amazing tan in cancun.. NOT a burn, or a burn/tan, a REAL TAN lmao
- get more piercings in my ears with alyss lol
- open a bank account, and learn how to manage/save my money
- go on some sort of road trip with my girlsss
- have lots of wild hardcore sexxxx lmfao jk ;) not really kidding though hahaaa
yeahhh thats it for now haha i cant think anymore lmao .. i think i lost brain cells over the past few weeks haha yeaaaahhhhh im done.. peaceee <33 xoxox
comments would be greatly appreciated haha