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Last week my car was towed, and it wasn't even my fault. There was NOTHING I could have done to pervent it. They towed it because the tags are expired, but the thing is I'm still waiting for the title to be transferred to my name and get the tags. By California law I'm still in the clear. After purchasing a car the own has six months to get it registered and all. It's been four months. It's not my fault that the paper work has been taking so long, and that it's incredible hard to communicate with the dealer, and get this thing all sorted out. So even though it wasn't my fault the car was towed, I did NOTHING wrong, I still had to pay 200 bucks to get it back. Two hundred dollars down the drain for no good reason.
Speaking of drains our's is leaking, and we've been too lazy to fix it. Whenever I have to do the dishes, I have to turn the hot water on from under the sink. Another pain in my ass. But now with the added expensive of the towing I don't want to pinch another dime out of my pocket.
Today I took a look at my checking account statement, and I was being billed by Verizon. At first I was I thought cool, I don't have to worry about paying that on time now. But then I realized that the amount was a bit high. So we tried to call Verizon to figure it out. I think we are being billed for these three extra things they made me get because they were part of the package, and they would be free for the first month. The problem is I don't know the phone number our DSL is under, and I don't know my user name and password to sign in online. I got extreamly frustrated with the automated voice service, and Aaron took over the call. First he may or may not have been hung up on. Then he called a thousand numbers, while I was freaking out about how hard it is being an adult and that I'm absolutly no good at it. When Aaron finally got through to an actual person, he spent about three hours on the phone, and nothing was solved. No amount of information that we gave them could they pull up our account. It's absolutly crazy I can see the charge on my credit card, but they have no idea who we are. We are supposedly not in their system. How they hell are they billing me then????
I'm extreamly frustrated with life. I want to find a hole to crawl into and wait until it's time to die. I feel incompetent. I'm not prepaired or ready for this life. I don't know how to do anything correctly. It just seems like everything I do ends up broken and unfixable.
I don't know if it's easier having someone say they love me bunches or if it makes it harder. I feel like I have a responisbility to be a better person for Aaron, but no matter what I do I just can't make that leap. I have no idea where to start.
I wanted to have a brighter outlook on life, but I just seem to be surrounded by this dark cloud, and I can't do anything to get out from under it. I feel awful that I feel tha way when I have such an amazing person loving me, but that seems to be the only positive thing in my life right now. It's putting so much strain on us, and terrified it's going to break up.
I want to move back east. California is not for me. But I can't exactly just get up and leave. I don't want to leave Aaron.
Speaking of drains our's is leaking, and we've been too lazy to fix it. Whenever I have to do the dishes, I have to turn the hot water on from under the sink. Another pain in my ass. But now with the added expensive of the towing I don't want to pinch another dime out of my pocket.
Today I took a look at my checking account statement, and I was being billed by Verizon. At first I was I thought cool, I don't have to worry about paying that on time now. But then I realized that the amount was a bit high. So we tried to call Verizon to figure it out. I think we are being billed for these three extra things they made me get because they were part of the package, and they would be free for the first month. The problem is I don't know the phone number our DSL is under, and I don't know my user name and password to sign in online. I got extreamly frustrated with the automated voice service, and Aaron took over the call. First he may or may not have been hung up on. Then he called a thousand numbers, while I was freaking out about how hard it is being an adult and that I'm absolutly no good at it. When Aaron finally got through to an actual person, he spent about three hours on the phone, and nothing was solved. No amount of information that we gave them could they pull up our account. It's absolutly crazy I can see the charge on my credit card, but they have no idea who we are. We are supposedly not in their system. How they hell are they billing me then????
I'm extreamly frustrated with life. I want to find a hole to crawl into and wait until it's time to die. I feel incompetent. I'm not prepaired or ready for this life. I don't know how to do anything correctly. It just seems like everything I do ends up broken and unfixable.
I don't know if it's easier having someone say they love me bunches or if it makes it harder. I feel like I have a responisbility to be a better person for Aaron, but no matter what I do I just can't make that leap. I have no idea where to start.
I wanted to have a brighter outlook on life, but I just seem to be surrounded by this dark cloud, and I can't do anything to get out from under it. I feel awful that I feel tha way when I have such an amazing person loving me, but that seems to be the only positive thing in my life right now. It's putting so much strain on us, and terrified it's going to break up.
I want to move back east. California is not for me. But I can't exactly just get up and leave. I don't want to leave Aaron.