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so i guess im getting by a little better in a sence that im not so miserable anymore.
it still hurts but i have to understand that nikki is never going to try and work things out with me.. shes made up her mind. she likes some other guy and shes probably going to move on very quickly. i shouldnt waste my time being miserable over someone that treats me the way she does lately anyways. i figured she would try and be a little more nice or at least be the least bit compassionate for someone that just had everything torn away from them, but i feel like she just chuckles behind my back.
hey, if shes happy living with those people.. ugh.. those people.. then fine. ill get on with my life and ill probably end up doing a lot better than i would have and ill raise my daughter to be the good person she should be on my own. i really wish it didnt have to be that way, but it probably will. i just hope nikki can be civil with me and understand that her liking this guy and possibly seeing him is very hard on me. hopefully well all do fine and be happy, be it on our own or together.
i guess i sound a tad bit bitchy in that, but give me a fucking break!! im torn up inside damnit.
it still hurts but i have to understand that nikki is never going to try and work things out with me.. shes made up her mind. she likes some other guy and shes probably going to move on very quickly. i shouldnt waste my time being miserable over someone that treats me the way she does lately anyways. i figured she would try and be a little more nice or at least be the least bit compassionate for someone that just had everything torn away from them, but i feel like she just chuckles behind my back.
hey, if shes happy living with those people.. ugh.. those people.. then fine. ill get on with my life and ill probably end up doing a lot better than i would have and ill raise my daughter to be the good person she should be on my own. i really wish it didnt have to be that way, but it probably will. i just hope nikki can be civil with me and understand that her liking this guy and possibly seeing him is very hard on me. hopefully well all do fine and be happy, be it on our own or together.
i guess i sound a tad bit bitchy in that, but give me a fucking break!! im torn up inside damnit.