I am currently 18 years old, and don't know how to live

[burnbrighteyes]

okay..life is going to change. Im going away to UCF in the fall to live with an unknown roomate and attend class with 300+ strangers. However, I am still lost about the whole friend concept. Most have not been able to give me what I have wanted. I need a friend to accept all my bad and good, challenge me intellectually, and to constantly confirm

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[blucypher]

Hey
Yeah, it's tough to find at least one person to truly be your 'best friend'. There are many authors that have the view that people merely 'bounce off of one another' and that 'deep relationships' are not possible. I, however, feel differently. I think that the homoerotic relationship between the same sexes is entirely possible and that, even though they may be tough to find, they are the kind that mean the most. If I were to give advice about this, I would say don't try to hard. If you search too deeply for this, you're going to let life pass you by. Don't wait for it, just enjoy the time you have before you find that person. UCF. There are a ton of people there, and you're bound to find new friends and everything. Weird things to say? I say weird shit all the time, my friends accept that. How do you know unless you try? Who cares if they think it's weird--they're your friends and shouldn't really think of you differently, and if they do, perhaps ya'll dont know eachother as well as you think you do.
Alright, I have a 2k today, so I'm going to rest up for a little bit...best of luck with that, kid.
Take it easy,
Ben

[burnbrighteyes]

I feel like I already know that they wouldn't know what to do with all the rest of me and i have to restrain myself around them. I feel like my friends and I have no more room to grow, and its nothing like: Im better than them, they form shallow frienships, etc. We just want different things out of life. I strive to do that too, don't look too hard..let it come by itself. Nothing in my life is unbearable, I'm a happy girl. I have this feeling I want more, and if I be myself and say all the weird things I know some people will match up to me. Right now, I would describe myself as frustrated and similtaneously accepting.