[truth_or_dare Week 10: Truth]
Truth 10: Have you ever wished you could be with someone else while in a monogamous relationship?
I've never been a one-man kind of girl, but I've always known that marriage is a sacrament. So, hey, don't get married. That was my plan, and I did a pretty good job sticking to it. Even the one time I got engaged didn't work out, since I'm the reason he's dead until Sam.
[Locked from Wants_to_resist and Arrow_of_apollo]
I had a one-night stand with my best friend--which was a really frakking stupid idea, but it's war, and you make stupid decisions during war. (Though I guess, really, I make them all the time.) And I love Lee, I do, just not...like I thought I did. The thing is, I'm good with sex but not so great with the rest of it, and what the hell did it mean that I loved Sam, frakked Lee, and thought I loved him, too?
What it means is that I'm not frakking cut out for marriage, but what did I do? I married Sam the next day. And I did love Sam, I wasn't lying about that. I still do, even though he's a Cylon and we seem to frak instead of talk lately. And I cheated on Sam again, with Lee, because--
Frak me. I don't know why I did it. I don't think before I do half the things I do. You can't, as a pilot, you'll end up dead. You act on instinct. And when it comes to flying, my instincts are frakking perfect, but everything else? Not so much. Especially relationships. I should probably just stay single and have random sex, like I did after Zak died. Why don't I just do that? I'm much better at things when they don't frakking matter.
I wonder, sometimes, how long I would have been faithful to Zak if he hadn't died. Probably not very long.
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I do something to the other person when I'm in love. Something bad. I think that part of me is broken, and all I know how to do is frak and then frak up. I don't know why I can't fall in love without it all going to hell, but I think the answer is to just stop. Gods know plenty of people would be better off for it.
Too bad it's too late.
I've never been a one-man kind of girl, but I've always known that marriage is a sacrament. So, hey, don't get married. That was my plan, and I did a pretty good job sticking to it. Even the one time I got engaged didn't work out, since I'm the reason he's dead until Sam.
[Locked from Wants_to_resist and Arrow_of_apollo]
I had a one-night stand with my best friend--which was a really frakking stupid idea, but it's war, and you make stupid decisions during war. (Though I guess, really, I make them all the time.) And I love Lee, I do, just not...like I thought I did. The thing is, I'm good with sex but not so great with the rest of it, and what the hell did it mean that I loved Sam, frakked Lee, and thought I loved him, too?
What it means is that I'm not frakking cut out for marriage, but what did I do? I married Sam the next day. And I did love Sam, I wasn't lying about that. I still do, even though he's a Cylon and we seem to frak instead of talk lately. And I cheated on Sam again, with Lee, because--
Frak me. I don't know why I did it. I don't think before I do half the things I do. You can't, as a pilot, you'll end up dead. You act on instinct. And when it comes to flying, my instincts are frakking perfect, but everything else? Not so much. Especially relationships. I should probably just stay single and have random sex, like I did after Zak died. Why don't I just do that? I'm much better at things when they don't frakking matter.
I wonder, sometimes, how long I would have been faithful to Zak if he hadn't died. Probably not very long.
[/unlocked]
I do something to the other person when I'm in love. Something bad. I think that part of me is broken, and all I know how to do is frak and then frak up. I don't know why I can't fall in love without it all going to hell, but I think the answer is to just stop. Gods know plenty of people would be better off for it.
Too bad it's too late.