Digging holes and burning wood

[burn_today]

i hurt myself again today
im feelin a little numb
i could use the pain
i always find myself in this little bind
it's been a few weeks
since you been around
so here i sit with my hands strapped down
patiently awaiting those secret
games i used to play alone
so here i sit all tied up
all alone with all my thoughts
i do not mind if this goes on
i think about what i'll say to you
when you finally decide to go my way
sitting around all painted like a fool
and i don't know how i got this way
and i don't know how much more i wanna take
i know you'll shoot me down and bury me before i get to high
so here i sit all tied up
all alone with all my thoughts
when will i learn to walk away
from those things i do
to make me feel the way i feel
when i'm with you
tonight it's me, myself and I
yeah
solitaire
all this pain i seem
to put myself through
all the ways i find to submit to you
cat'o'nine tails is getting old
and i don't know how i got this way
and i don't know how much more i wanna take
a million ways to change myself and
a million nights to try
so here i sit all tied up
all alone with all my thoughts
when will i learn to walk away
from those things i do
to make me feel
the way i feel
when i'm with you
but tonight it's me, myself, and I
when you come around
do those things you do to me
i hate this game of solitaire