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if you dont know i cut, dont read this. i have a problem, i know. dont critisize me. i hate critisizm. i feel like telling the truth. dont think im psycho or anything. im not. im normal.
you wouldnt know how much courage it took me to put this up.
Are you a boy/ girl?: girl
Age: 14
Age you began to cut: 12
Does anyone know you cut?: you do.
Does your parent(s)/ guardian(s)?: um. lets hope not.
Do you ever burn or bruise yourself?: burnt my finger once. didnt WANT the pain that time though.
Do you think that you are depressed?: right now? not now. i used to be.
Do you think you have anxiety problems?: um. yeah. sometimes. certain people. they are the ones that do it.
Do you think you have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)?: nope.
Do you have any other disorders? haha. i think i have ADD, but my mom doesnt care about me so she wont take me to get any tests, or anything.
Do you have an eating disorder? nah.
Are you on meds?: i probably should be.
Have you been hospitalized or been to the ER for self injury/ suicide attempt?: no. that would suck.
Have you tried to commit suicide? (multiple times how many?): yeah. maybe 2 times.
Does anyone know that you tried? yeah. my sister read my journal.
Are you/have you ever been abused in any way?: hehe. i get beat up a lot by my big sister. bruises everywhere. and i do usually get abused emotionally. no one cares though.
Have you ever been sexually assaulted? i wish.
Do you do drugs? (what, how much, how often)?: i try not to. usually dont.
Do you think of cutting as a good or bad thing?: bad. bad. its going to destroy me.
Do you wish you could stop?: yeah. its just the only thing i have, though.
Do you wish to stop in the future?: hopefully...
What are your feelings leading up to, during and after cutting? when i cut, i get numb. the feeling is so overwhelming and completely beautiful. i feels good to feel physically hurt, instead of the pain ive felt inside for so long.
When you cut does it hurt?: not when reopening scars, i get used to it in some places.
Do you bandage your cuts? nah. i just do them where no one can see.
Where do you most normally cut? arm, shoulder.
Do you have a weapon of choice, do you carry it with you?: yeah. and no. get me in trouble at school? you crazy?
Have you ever made a weapon out of something ordinary or something you found? : just usually anything sharp. i dont make weapons though. that would be weird to me.
What have you used to injure yourself?: knives, razors,
how do you fell about your cuts/scars do they tell a story?: i hate my scars. they bring back bad memories.
Have people ever asked about your cuts/scars? yeah.
What did you tell them? i cut myself.
you ever show people your cuts/scars?: no.
Do you ever design a cut (make it decorative or in a certain shape)? : yeah. i have this huge zig-zag scar. looks cool kind of. maybe i could show it to you sometime.
Are your cuts lines or in rows, or designs? both.
Have you ever cut too deep? what is too deep?
Have you ever scared yourself while, before or after cutting? no...
Do you go to therapy? : nah.
Do you have trust issues? sometimes,
Do you sit in corners? sure.
Do you know people or hang out with people who cut?: no. i hope they dont find out i cut. my life will be over.
you wouldnt know how much courage it took me to put this up.
Are you a boy/ girl?: girl
Age: 14
Age you began to cut: 12
Does anyone know you cut?: you do.
Does your parent(s)/ guardian(s)?: um. lets hope not.
Do you ever burn or bruise yourself?: burnt my finger once. didnt WANT the pain that time though.
Do you think that you are depressed?: right now? not now. i used to be.
Do you think you have anxiety problems?: um. yeah. sometimes. certain people. they are the ones that do it.
Do you think you have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)?: nope.
Do you have any other disorders? haha. i think i have ADD, but my mom doesnt care about me so she wont take me to get any tests, or anything.
Do you have an eating disorder? nah.
Are you on meds?: i probably should be.
Have you been hospitalized or been to the ER for self injury/ suicide attempt?: no. that would suck.
Have you tried to commit suicide? (multiple times how many?): yeah. maybe 2 times.
Does anyone know that you tried? yeah. my sister read my journal.
Are you/have you ever been abused in any way?: hehe. i get beat up a lot by my big sister. bruises everywhere. and i do usually get abused emotionally. no one cares though.
Have you ever been sexually assaulted? i wish.
Do you do drugs? (what, how much, how often)?: i try not to. usually dont.
Do you think of cutting as a good or bad thing?: bad. bad. its going to destroy me.
Do you wish you could stop?: yeah. its just the only thing i have, though.
Do you wish to stop in the future?: hopefully...
What are your feelings leading up to, during and after cutting? when i cut, i get numb. the feeling is so overwhelming and completely beautiful. i feels good to feel physically hurt, instead of the pain ive felt inside for so long.
When you cut does it hurt?: not when reopening scars, i get used to it in some places.
Do you bandage your cuts? nah. i just do them where no one can see.
Where do you most normally cut? arm, shoulder.
Do you have a weapon of choice, do you carry it with you?: yeah. and no. get me in trouble at school? you crazy?
Have you ever made a weapon out of something ordinary or something you found? : just usually anything sharp. i dont make weapons though. that would be weird to me.
What have you used to injure yourself?: knives, razors,
how do you fell about your cuts/scars do they tell a story?: i hate my scars. they bring back bad memories.
Have people ever asked about your cuts/scars? yeah.
What did you tell them? i cut myself.
you ever show people your cuts/scars?: no.
Do you ever design a cut (make it decorative or in a certain shape)? : yeah. i have this huge zig-zag scar. looks cool kind of. maybe i could show it to you sometime.
Are your cuts lines or in rows, or designs? both.
Have you ever cut too deep? what is too deep?
Have you ever scared yourself while, before or after cutting? no...
Do you go to therapy? : nah.
Do you have trust issues? sometimes,
Do you sit in corners? sure.
Do you know people or hang out with people who cut?: no. i hope they dont find out i cut. my life will be over.