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i'm trying to be really careful not to promise myself anything. We are who we are and all that. But if theres nothing to be gleaned from this, then it's all pretty goddamn dismal. Just another deeply fucked up event in our lives that we walk out of the same people we were before. So I'm not making any promises. It's more of a wish list. It became evident yesterday that I care about more people than I thought I did. So that gets me halfway there. I just want to start making it clear to these individuals that I do. I may not see them for weeks at a time, but I think about them. And they mean something to me. Jason was always really good at loving his friends and making it obvious that he did. I never mentioned to him how much I wished I were more like him in that way. I won't get to now, but maybe this makes up for it. A little.
I really should start being a bit nicer to Kevin.
I really should start being a bit nicer to Kevin.