as you sleep and no one is listening I will.... lift off your feet!

[burn_my_wings]

I <3 the fact that all the stupid seniors are gone right now. In Yearbook Class its normally boring (well now its study hall because yearbooks are done) but yeah. We can never use the computers because all the psychotic black seniors that like to yell at us poor little white sophomores. But, they are on the senior trip. So, right now I am sitting in the yearbook computer room with Carol, listening to "Something Corporate" on the computer. Oh yeah baby, oh yeah. Its pretty damn nice. Ya know, I was so close to getting personal on here but, I guess not. I don't know who reads this journal. Personal information to get into the wrong hands and that would seriously be shit. Yeah. But.. yeah thats all I guess. I talked to Alix, the fucking e-tard last night. LoL. E-tard. You'd have to have been there. Yeah. She kept laughing and wouldn't shut up it was so hilarious. But then I got off because Ashley called me and we talked for a while and then we got off the phone and, she was supposed to call back but she didn't. Oh well, I was asleep like five minutes after she got off, haha. Anyways, yeah. I slept good and stuff. I'm in a better mood than I was yesterday. I mean I'm not like super pissed off and wanting to kill someone so thats good right? Right. I still think I need some kind of therapy. Like, Anger management, or something. Psychotherapy. Shock treatment. Who knows! I'm fuckin paranoid as shit, man. Seriously. I always think the worst. And I have a few other problems I don't feel safe listing here. (see, more paranoia there...) My parents are going out of town this weekend and yeah. I'm kinda excited about that but the only bad part is my uncle is staying at the house. I don't know my uncle. I've seen him about, three times in my entire life so the fact that some middle aged male I hardly know is going to be sleeping in my house while I am there is just not a good thing. I do not like that idea at all But no one seems to care about my opinion on that. And I can't necessarily blurt out "BUT WHAT THE FUCK, WHAT IF HE RAPES ME OR SOME SHIT!?!? We don't really know this guy! HE COULD BE A PERVERT." And yeah. I dunno I just don't like it. Anyways. What else, what else... I don't think there is anything else to say. I had a weird dream. I was at my old friend's house down the street. and the outside looked normal but inside it was like, completely remodeled. It was kind of dark and had this lonely-nobody is there feeling because it was so empty. The house was gorgeous, though. Like, the rooms were all big. Except I never saw my friends room (who was giving me the tour of the house) because all of a sudden my mother and father are there, and we are like, right outside before my room and its all sunny and there is this HUGE ass pool there. Its covered though. I almost like, drown in it because I step on top of it or w/e it was odd. And then my parents take me over to where my room is (which has a fuckin escalator leading up to it and I was like wtf? But I never got to see what my room looked like. = ( OH yeah and through like the whole thing I was looking for someone or something and I felt so lost and alone and it was just crazy creepy. I had this victimized feeling. I just don't know, it was very odd. Anyways. I played my guitar alot last night and ti was funny because I was like 'I am gonna go hook up my amp to my guitar and I am gonna turn it up real loud and play. You are so gonna be all like "hey, ac/dc's in the house!" because all the songs I know are ac/dc (except for the few something corporate, jimmy eat world, and marilyn manson songs.) and so I did and my dad walks in and goes.. "Hey! AC/DC's in the house!!!" Lol it was funny. To me, an yways. Well, LOVES, I am going now. muah Oh yes. Post commens, they make me happy. Ya'll should know that by now. -Shell <33333333333333