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I can't stress to you the anger, frustration, pain and regret of..well...my life. I know I need to change me, but I need help in doing this. I've lost a good friend and I have a feeling I'm losing some not so good friends because of what shes telling them. Right now she has little to no respect for me because of what happened this weekend. So I'm going to try and explain this from my point of view.
It was Lucys birthday on Saturday and that day Tiff and I took her out for her manicure and spent the afternoon shopping for a new outfit. It was just like it used to be..last year. Then came Saturdy night..we had dinner and it was good...Mitch and I..her 2 best friends happened to step outside to make a phone call at the wrong time. Right as they decide to sing Happy Birthday to her. We felt awful. And Lucy honey, you know I'd never do anything like that to hurt you, your one of the most important people in my life and I'm always gonna be here. I'm so sorry that we went outside, you have NO idea how sorry.
After dinner we all walk to McDicks...on the way some of us crack open some beer, drink run like water and inhale smokes. We got there and Curtis and Radi were both drunk. I wasn't drunk...dizzy and tipsy...*Sigh* and yes I made out with the both...I kissed them..more than once. I'm not proud of how this made me look, at all.
Some people now have NO respect for me, and I dont know what I can do to get it back. I'm Really sorry guys, I mean I dont know what else to say. It wasn't the best moment of my life, and I'm just sorry. Those of you who I call my best friends should know I would never act like that if I was sober. You know I wouldn't present myself like that.
I'm not a slut, and you all should know that. These last couple of weeks, I've spending most of my time with Stouffer. I dont know really whats going on but I think I like him and for once it's actually going REALLY well..whether he likes me or not. I dont wanna screw this up, because right now it's amazing.
Mitchell, your like my brother...and without you I dont know where I'd be. You know me more than anyone else. I love you, we have our moments for sure but like I said, I dont know where I'd be without you.
Lucy, most kind and honest, loving person I know. So VERY supportive in everything and like Mitchell your like my sister. Your always there for me, you always have been and will be, and you know i'm here for you also.You think the best of me you help me, and you know I sit here doing the exact same thing. I love you more than anyone or anything. Your amazing baby.
Nick...what can I say Nick...honest, caring and always there for me, when I need someone to talk to and to understand me. We've had fights and we'll probably have more of them but honey we work at them all the time and we always come out best friends. :)
Tiffaney, though your not talking to me right now and you have no respect for me, your one of the most amazing people I've met. Funny, smart, kind, sharing, supportive...just everything. Your one of the best friends I could EVER ask for. Whether you believe this or not is totally your call but trust me sweetie I mean every single thing I've written in here.
Theres so many peoople who are considered my best friends...Chris, Bryce, Meaghan, Kailey, Radi, Devin, all of 'em. I love 'em all SO much. I just wanna say thank you for ALWAYS being there for me guys, and to help realise some things.
All you guys know I have little to NO self-esteem and you guys give me that little bit that keeps me going. Please give mea chance to prove that I'm not like th at...to prove I'm more than that..please?!
It was Lucys birthday on Saturday and that day Tiff and I took her out for her manicure and spent the afternoon shopping for a new outfit. It was just like it used to be..last year. Then came Saturdy night..we had dinner and it was good...Mitch and I..her 2 best friends happened to step outside to make a phone call at the wrong time. Right as they decide to sing Happy Birthday to her. We felt awful. And Lucy honey, you know I'd never do anything like that to hurt you, your one of the most important people in my life and I'm always gonna be here. I'm so sorry that we went outside, you have NO idea how sorry.
After dinner we all walk to McDicks...on the way some of us crack open some beer, drink run like water and inhale smokes. We got there and Curtis and Radi were both drunk. I wasn't drunk...dizzy and tipsy...*Sigh* and yes I made out with the both...I kissed them..more than once. I'm not proud of how this made me look, at all.
Some people now have NO respect for me, and I dont know what I can do to get it back. I'm Really sorry guys, I mean I dont know what else to say. It wasn't the best moment of my life, and I'm just sorry. Those of you who I call my best friends should know I would never act like that if I was sober. You know I wouldn't present myself like that.
I'm not a slut, and you all should know that. These last couple of weeks, I've spending most of my time with Stouffer. I dont know really whats going on but I think I like him and for once it's actually going REALLY well..whether he likes me or not. I dont wanna screw this up, because right now it's amazing.
Mitchell, your like my brother...and without you I dont know where I'd be. You know me more than anyone else. I love you, we have our moments for sure but like I said, I dont know where I'd be without you.
Lucy, most kind and honest, loving person I know. So VERY supportive in everything and like Mitchell your like my sister. Your always there for me, you always have been and will be, and you know i'm here for you also.You think the best of me you help me, and you know I sit here doing the exact same thing. I love you more than anyone or anything. Your amazing baby.
Nick...what can I say Nick...honest, caring and always there for me, when I need someone to talk to and to understand me. We've had fights and we'll probably have more of them but honey we work at them all the time and we always come out best friends. :)
Tiffaney, though your not talking to me right now and you have no respect for me, your one of the most amazing people I've met. Funny, smart, kind, sharing, supportive...just everything. Your one of the best friends I could EVER ask for. Whether you believe this or not is totally your call but trust me sweetie I mean every single thing I've written in here.
Theres so many peoople who are considered my best friends...Chris, Bryce, Meaghan, Kailey, Radi, Devin, all of 'em. I love 'em all SO much. I just wanna say thank you for ALWAYS being there for me guys, and to help realise some things.
All you guys know I have little to NO self-esteem and you guys give me that little bit that keeps me going. Please give mea chance to prove that I'm not like th at...to prove I'm more than that..please?!