Losing Everything.
I'm losing out on everything. I can never seen to win. What once was my friend, seems like nothing more than an accquaintance. And I guess it's probably my fault, because I'm just a bad friend, as clearly proven.
Self-esteem, or what little I had, is now gone. I know I can never take it all back. Chances I've taken, hoping I would win this time and come out ahead of the game, have all been lost and can burn in hell. I keep falling, further in to this black hole of loneliness and regret.. Regretting everything, all the chances I've taken. The only chance I know I'll win is taking this knife to my throat. Would anyone care? Pssh, are you kidding, no one notices me when I'm here let alone if I left this world.
Nothing left to do, but to hide all my feelings, and act as if I never said anything. Hide it all and put a smile on my face to show people I'm happy....I must be good at it, cause it seems to be working.
Self-esteem, or what little I had, is now gone. I know I can never take it all back. Chances I've taken, hoping I would win this time and come out ahead of the game, have all been lost and can burn in hell. I keep falling, further in to this black hole of loneliness and regret.. Regretting everything, all the chances I've taken. The only chance I know I'll win is taking this knife to my throat. Would anyone care? Pssh, are you kidding, no one notices me when I'm here let alone if I left this world.
Nothing left to do, but to hide all my feelings, and act as if I never said anything. Hide it all and put a smile on my face to show people I'm happy....I must be good at it, cause it seems to be working.