its been forever and i am sorry... to myself not anyone else..

[buriednglass]

so yea.. i live in a trailer till i get this loan to fix my house.. the loan is taking forever.. i never hear or see the LF kids anymore.. not sure why... life is weird.... i wish i could do more... the only thing that gets me through is my guitar and my drums.. i have started playing the drums alot.. i like my set , nothing awesome , but i have good cymbals and i think for only playin like three weeks i am pickin it up crazy fast... guitar is always my love tho but drums might become my focus.... i got this bass from my cousin for free , its cool.. needs a new pick guard tho. pearl is gay... my opinion tho... my ibanez was appraised at 850 which is cool.. i got it for 150 in a pawn shop.. i fell in love at first site.. i am glad i got it othetr than droppin a grand on the sg i want... one day.... i suck... need more to do.. need to gte out more.. i am takin drum lessons from this dude i met.. hes fuckin awesome and i have been playing with this guy josh and this guy john .. we have been doin this jazz/blues fusion thing.. it sounds bad ass and when i get even beetter and can lay down some thick ass beats it'll be even better.. they said they like playin so much and have so much fun that thewy are willing to wait for me to get better and shit.. they seem to think i am good.. i don't think i am .. they seem to think i get better everytime we play.. and i think i am gettin better but not like they think... we'll see tho..... i am tired... we have started to sound proof my jam room... we have an 8 track to go in there now... got tons of free carpet and padding from some dude. a few mics and stands from some other guy. and i got a nice bass amp from this other dude that was tryin to get rid of it.. not to mention my drum set only cost 100 bucks... i am happy with some of the things that are goin on right now... so i guess you have to take the good with the bad... now if the person who owes me 600 bucks would hook it up everything would be fine.. not to mention the 1500 someone else owes me.... i am just a fuckin dumb ass... i met this girl sara at a party a few weeks ago. we hit it off.. shes mega hot... couple days go by and she stays over and nature takes it course... but then she starts talkin about how the music i listen to sucks and i need to start doin this and start doin that.... so i told her that i didn't think we should see each other everyday for awhile.. so she freaks and is talkin about how i just fucked her and used her... she has finally stopped leavein me fuct up messages on my machine... boy , i know how to pick them let me tell ya....

done for now... peace...